Real’s Math Ask Meme

ok now i might have some kind of super memory??

a week ago i played chess with bf and we didn't finish, so now i arranged the board as i remembered it and i got 13 out of 14 pieces correctly

i mean wow i didn't know i am capable of something like this

might be autism i suspect i might have

anyway now i want to know everything about human memory and take advantage of that

moreover tiktok adhd content is not even good lol most of it is videos themed "things I didn't know were adhd" and they actually are personality traits and it's not helpful at all with anything

just saw a post complaining about how hard it is to find adhd resources for adults and one of the comments said “tiktok has a lot of adhd tips” as if telling someone with adhd to enter the algorithmic quicksand of perpetual dopamine hits isn’t the most insane thing you could suggest for someone with adhd

for the sake of an updates to this, I didn't get 100% on that topology test. I got 85%, which was the third best score. I finally scored the highest possible final grade on that subject, so I'm satisfied. fuck I love algebraic topology so much and I think she loves me

oh and I scored fucking 54% on the analysis test. I think I had a mental orgasm when I found out about that lmao it felt so good. I finished the course with a grade of 4 (idk if it's universal, so 2=the lowest, failed, 5=the highest) which is the best I ever got in the analysis course

28 V 2022

topology and analysis tests are over, both went I think alright

if I don't get 100% from topo I'm going to be very frustrated, because I studied hard and acquired deep understanding of the material – so far as to be able to hold a lecture for my classmate about any topic

analysis ughhh if I get ≥40% I will be overjoyed. but that's just the specifics of this subject, you study super hard and seem to be entirely ready, you solve all of the problems in prep and then best you can do is 40%. my best score so far was 42%, so anything more than that will be my lifetime record lmao, I want this so bad. I solved two problems entirely I think, which should give 40% already, and some pieces from two more, chances are I get 50%, which would be absolutely amazing

here are some pictures from me transforming math into an art project

stokes theorem

topology

I was thinking about how annoying I find what people say to me when I tell them that I'm not happy with how I'm doing at math. their first idea is to tell me how great I am and how all I do is good enough and shit like that. it doesn't help, it just feels like I am not being taken seriously. when I barely pass anything, am I really supposed to believe that everything is actually good? it feels like they skip getting to know my situation and just tell me what they would tell anyone, automatic

when I try to calm myself down and think something that will keep me going I don't try to force myself to be happy, fuck that, not being content with one's achievements is very fine, I believe not being happy all the time is fully natural and all that positivity feels so fake

instead what seems to work is asking myself where the rational threshold of being ok with how I'm doing is. the thing is I will never be satisfied, whatever I have, I always want more. but I can set the limits in advance and that stops me from falling into self-loathing loops

although what has really changed the game for me was getting a few good grades, finally I am achieving something, anything. people tell me that I should learn to be alright without this external reliance on achievements but how am I supposed to do that when the source of my low moods is precisely getting less than I want? I don't understand why I should brainwash myself into thinking that this is actually not what I want. the trick here is to separate the goal-orientedness from the sense of self-worth. the groundbreaking realization of mine was figuring out that I believe I deserve more than I get, that's why I am unhappy. so now that I am getting what I think what I deserve I obviously feel much better

→ 3 IX 2021

such a weird day today. i finished complete spaces and then moved on to preparing for the math conference i'm going to on sunday. there is a lot of high level stuff so i won't be able to learn everything, of course, but i'm doing my fav thing ever and enjoying it thoroughly. that is, switching from a topic to a topic in the spare of 15 minutes and reading a bit about anything until it stops being ✨super exciting✨

this amounts to a total of 8 hours of math and i am not done yet. love it, absolutely love to waste time like that

concentration: fucking ∞

tomorrow i'm doing an algebra speedrun with bf and two of our friends. this is an experiment aiming at seeing how much information we are able to pack into our heads in one sitting. we haven't studied abstract algebra before. then in a few as i mentioned i am going to a math conference, with bf and our other friend. excited about that too. i fucking love math

The Washington Post's Mensa Invitational invited readers to take any word from the dictionary, alter it by adding, subtracting, or changing one letter, and supply a new definition.

Here are the winners:

The chili plant made a deal with their God to only be consumed by things that could spread its seeds and fly. The chili received capsaicin, making itself painful to eat for mammals, but not birds, and all was well for the chili.

Then the human shows up, tastes it, and likes the pain. So now there's this flightless fucking mammal eating the chili. Like not even a fruit bat or anything, a flightless fucking mammal chomping on the chili.

What the fucking shit, God, cried the chili, I specifically requested the opposite of this.

Now hold on, wait a moment, replied the God who talks to plants but has no idea what the fuck these apes are going to do next. It might be something cool.

And in a flash of a second, in barely fraction of the time that chili took to develop capsaicin, the humans went from walking across land bridges and rowing little boats across small waters, into building ships that could cross oceans. More humans tasted the chili, and liked the pain. They took the seeds with them, and planted it elsewhere.

See? They spread the seeds.

They're still not flying, said the chili, still feeling insulted and betrayed.

But before the conversation was over, the humans were still not done fucking around and nowhere close to finding out. The ships became machines, and another machine was invented, capable of flight. Now, not only were the humans farming chili on continents far too far away for any of the birds that originally ate it could dream of flying, but the chili flew with them to lands where it could possibly not grow, so that humans over there could also eat it and enjoy the pain.

You see? They spread your seeds and fly.

It doesn't count as keeping a promise if you only manage it by a fucking accident, said the chili, still somewhat insulted. But nonetheless, the chili thrived.

I have a bunch of followers and mutuals that I never even talked to and I know some of you guys are very into math too, so let's get to know each other, shall we?

if you feel like you'd enjoy talking to me then go ahead, write me a message! I just realized I never said something like this and I would really love to have conversations with like-minded people

if this feels familiar, you can reblog this post to invite people to talk to you

mathematicians, constantly: god I’m so tired of people telling me how much they hate math whenever i mention what im into

me: yeah it’s fucked up. i do probability theory, what about you

them: oh man I hate probability theory

Astronaut sculpture from an ex-physicist (Source/Credit)

30 I 2023

in a fortnight I will have two oral exams and one problem-based exam

the first oral will be for complex analysis and we are supposed to choose three topics from which the professor will pick one and we'll have a chat. I chose meromorphic functions, Weierstrass function and modular function. I have already received my final score from homeworks, which is 73%. combined with 74% and 100% from tests, I am aiming for the top grade

the rest of exams will be for algebraic methods. a friend who already took this course told me that when someone is about to get a passing grade, they get general questions and the professor doesn't demand details of proofs. when I asked him if we are supposed to know the proofs in full detail or if it suffices to just be familiar with the sketch, he told me that if I will only know the sketch I will sit there until I fill in all the details. lmao that sounds like he wants me to get a top grade. ok challenge accepted

so it seems like I have a chance to ace everything. if I achieve this and do it again next semester I can apply for a scholarship. studying for the sole purpose of getting good grades doesn't feel right, the grades should come as a side effect of learning the material. buuut if I can get paid for studying then I might want to try harder, I enjoy being unpoor

the next two weeks will be spent mostly grinding for the algebraic methods exams, this is what I'm doing today