Oh And There Is The Dual Thing: Sometimes You Just Know That The Professor Hates The Subject. Like When

omg so that's why so many empty blogs follow me. I've been blocking them at first assuming that they were bots, but at some point the usernames started sounding way too normal-human-like, so I stopped, my instinct told me something else was going on. lemme just unblock all the empty blogs now, damn, I'm so sorry to everyone who wanted to follow me but was blocked out of habit!!

fun fact!! it turns out that now when u make a new blog, tumblr forces you to follow 3-4 people before you can change your icon or modify your blog in any way!! this, of course, means that, yes, some of the "potential bots" many of us have been automatically blocking could have possibly been genuine new users who were only just seconds in to having an account!!! tumblr is literally screwing new users over!!!!

Square is a rhombus, regular hexagon can be tessellated with three equal rhombuses, and every regular polygon with even number of sides can be rhombi-tessellated.

rb this with ur opinion on this shade of pink:

in my country having a diagnosis is highly confidential, too. there is no such thing as "the government knowing about your diagnoses" unless you get evaluated for disability documentation (I have no idea how to translate this to english), which is your choice. besides, who knows when the diagnosis will be useful? waiting for a diagnostic appointment takes several months and is very expensive, so taking an opportunity to sort this thing out when it's possible is good. depending on where someone lives, it can be very harmful to say that having a diagnosis somehow creates disadvantages

at my university the support program for people with asd has been introduced two years ago. it took me almost a year to get everything done, a year of unnecessary suffering. treatment for depression with or wihout adhd can be completely different and having it on paper that in your personal circumstances ssri might not work can save so much time. when someone suspects adhd and the situation calls for introducing medication, it's nice to be able to try right away, not wait several months for a diagnosis. those are just some practical examples of how you never know when diagnosis might be useful

and the validation reason, yeah, that too, it's beneficial to have someone work with you through that stuff. moreover, with professional support there comes someone suggesting solutions and forms of help that one might not even thought of. there are shitty doctors, but there are good ones too, and I think we should talk more about how to find the right ones instead of demonizing getting help

By the way. Before you rush to get a professional diagnosis for a Brain Thing you should really weigh your options. Like do you just want to "prove it" or will this actually give you access to treatment you can't have otherwise? Are the treatment options available worth having the government know you're neurodivergent? Because sometimes it's better to keep things off the record because unfortunately we still live in a very deeply ableist society and you might not want to have more real material oppression stacked against you than you have to

21 I 2023

so the test I had today, our professor went crazy with grading it and we all had our scores by midnight

I don't think I ever scored 100% before, but here it is

I was insanely lucky. yesterday I was watching some series (and by that I mean Young Royals, not Fourier) and I had a thought you know might as well give them elliptic functions a quick read. today one of the easy problems required to only know the basic definitions and properties, have I not spent those 40 minutes reading I would probably not solve it. the other easy problem was solved by picard's theorems, my favourite, which I tried to use with every given opportunity so now it's as they say: when your only tool is a hammer every problem looks like a nail. and today it actually was a nail. two other problems were just objectively easy and the last one took a lot of my time but it was "my type" of problems, so I enjoyed working on it and I had some good ideas thanks to solving about 20 similar problems before

so that's how it feels to reach above my goals. I dreamt of this moment and it feels exactly like I thought it would. ah feels good man

people using a matrix as just a bunch of numbers in a grid or a way to summarize some elaborate calculation instead of a way of notating a linear transformation (or at least a set of points) feels kind of genuinely profane to me. like its one of the only times i feel like i "get" the concept of the profane. how could you do that to her

30 I 2023

in a fortnight I will have two oral exams and one problem-based exam

the first oral will be for complex analysis and we are supposed to choose three topics from which the professor will pick one and we'll have a chat. I chose meromorphic functions, Weierstrass function and modular function. I have already received my final score from homeworks, which is 73%. combined with 74% and 100% from tests, I am aiming for the top grade

the rest of exams will be for algebraic methods. a friend who already took this course told me that when someone is about to get a passing grade, they get general questions and the professor doesn't demand details of proofs. when I asked him if we are supposed to know the proofs in full detail or if it suffices to just be familiar with the sketch, he told me that if I will only know the sketch I will sit there until I fill in all the details. lmao that sounds like he wants me to get a top grade. ok challenge accepted

so it seems like I have a chance to ace everything. if I achieve this and do it again next semester I can apply for a scholarship. studying for the sole purpose of getting good grades doesn't feel right, the grades should come as a side effect of learning the material. buuut if I can get paid for studying then I might want to try harder, I enjoy being unpoor

the next two weeks will be spent mostly grinding for the algebraic methods exams, this is what I'm doing today

ok now i might have some kind of super memory??

a week ago i played chess with bf and we didn't finish, so now i arranged the board as i remembered it and i got 13 out of 14 pieces correctly

i mean wow i didn't know i am capable of something like this

might be autism i suspect i might have

anyway now i want to know everything about human memory and take advantage of that

13-16 VIII 2021

much work recently gotta code

gonna monitor only my focus now, define the scale such that 1 means "can't concentrate at all" and 5 means "hyperfocus". today was

focus: 2

i am not doing as much math as i'd like to as i have to focus on the python project i'm doing with bf. anyway, we can say that i did cartesian products of topo spaces, i do have some basic understanding of the concepts now. i started compact spaces. i also need to read some stuff on connectedness and put extra time into analyzing examples of what i've been learning about. so that's the next thing on my schedule, after i'm done with compact and connected spaces

but hey i have 1.5 month of the holidays left and i learned most of the theory planned for me on analysis and half of what i'm supposed to learn on topo. doing good

other than that i decided to write down the structure of how i study:

i find it to be a good way for studying math, it goes brrr like this:

general idea → details, connections and applications

i gained some followers already, i hope you guys enjoy this and possibly find it helpful. moreover, i'm very interested in your custom study algorithms if you have any

hey be nice to me im just a teenage girl who has legally been an adult for years