Tumblr Is The Place Where I Get To Cry And Be A Bitch So With That Being Said I Am In SO MUCH Fucking
Tumblr is the place where I get to cry and be a bitch so with that being said I am in SO MUCH fucking pain I hate my hep c I’m crying everyday it’s killing me and I’m throwing up everyday it’s torture and I’m only 20 years old. I can barely do my shifts at work. I’m so weak I can’t barely eat I can’t keep anything down. I have been throwing up everyday for over a year now and man it’s wearing on me now. I can’t take this I feel another relapse I don’t want to I know it will make it worse but I’m doing all of the right things but still sick everyday. I am skin and bones and it’s effevtnmy me mentally so bad as well. I just feel so empty literally... I know drugs put me here but I still want them. I want to inform people on harm reduction and safe use so someone else won’t go through the pain I’m going through. Maybe if this doesn’t kill me I’ll start a blog about that... any ways bye now. No one is going to read this lol
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Things my addiction took from me
• The ability to say “no”
• Willingness to let another person help me
• Basic every day things; eating, bathing, brushing my teeth, sleeping
• Countless positive opportunities
• People- only the good ones though
• Self awareness
• Self control
• Self respect
• Financial stability
• My positivity
• Willingness to live and to try
• Any sense of safety or security
• Trust- I lost people’s trust and I stopped trusting people
• Healthy relationships
• The ability to express my emotions
• Daily routine
• Quality of life
• Other people’s respect for me
• A clear mind
• A healthy body
• My sanity
• My willingness to do anything unless I am under the influence
• The ability to recognize myself
• The ability to recognize who’s healthy for me and who isn’t.
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