R U Capable Of Embracing Your Longings?

r u capable of being accurate?

and what is accurate, sir?

r u capable of singing to your masks a farewale song?

r u (really) capable of intimacy?

r u capable of being consistent?

in demonstration against corruption & tyranny. Jerusalem 8/8/2020

& we   will   not   stop

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r u capable of forgiving yourself?

r u capable of leaving the place u call and actually feel home; where u have your family, your food, your weather, your language, your story and at the same time u feel abused, deceived, suffocated? r u capable of leaving it all for the chance of a new start with some sort of positive future in place  X somewhere in this cruel world? 

r u capable of understanding the mystery in life?

no. but i trust it

r u capable of trusting your intuitions?

r u capable of opening your heart?

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r u capable of changing your mental DNA?

Today, 44 years ago, my grandfather died. He was killed in his car by explosives he had for construction project. I was born two month before. First granDchild to Motke Bargida, who lost all his family in the Hollocost and survived the worst in Auschowitz by the age of 15. He came to Israel and created a family and a business (earthworks construction). His sudden death change completely my family’s narrative. He never spoke about the Hollocost but i was curious about it and i love history so i returned again and again to this subject through my life and its part of my life since i was a child. I am 44 now and the memories still flashing, memories that are not mine but i have to feel them over and over again, they r part of my mental DNA.

I came to the studio today instead to my grandfather’s grave (due to corona restrictions) and i wanted to express my longings to him, whom I never met.

It came to be a bit dark, but i’m sure he will understand.

I called it: P.T.SS.D Generation 3.0