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Goals For This Year

I know I'm like 3 months late but I was waiting for the academic year to end so right now I'm fresh out of high school and obviously my priorities look different now so let's get down to it. Last year's goal post is here

It's almost the same for a few things. Some of my goals are standard so let's go

Personal:

Finish Quran at least 2 times

Memorize Juz 30 and half of Juz 29

Sleep and wake up at the same time everyday (5 am and 11 pm)

Exercise everyday

Maintain good mental health

Pray Tahajjud everyday

Get experience in data entry (I got myself a small gig every week so I guess it's good)

Figure out college

Academic:

(I'm not really taking a content heavy course so this is going to be a short list)

Maintain good grades in college semesters

Search for courses and internships

Extra curriculars:

Brush up my Arabic, especially speaking skills

Maintain this blog

Get into some frontend development

Open up a business

Improvements to be made/Fields to explore:

Confidence in speaking

Finance management

Frontend development

Arabic speaking fluency

So, if you noticed, compared to last year's goals. This year is pretty low . One main reason? I'm done with high school so obviously I don't have any long list for academics, i just want to build something stable so i guess this is something i'm working with. I don't want to pressurize myself into getting perfect grades in college because let's be honest, the degree doesn't count. It's the things that you do outside of it.

“Lack of direction, not lack of time, is the problem. We all have twenty-four hour days.” - Zig Ziglar

If you take the bus, wave to the driver and thank them as you're getting off the bus.

Being a bus driver is an underappreciated and difficult job but still very vital to society. They still have to do customer service and deal with rude and even aggressive passengers, and on top of that have to deal with traffic and other drivers all day (and let's face it, there's a lot of bad drivers out there who aren't considerate about sharing the road). All while providing an invaluable service of getting us where we need to go. Showing them some appreciation can go a long ways for someone doing such an important job that usually gets little to no recognition or thanks.

23.06.2024

So i kinda missed a day yesterday, I was busy with my project and i got a cold... i literally didn't study anything, i have no idea what I'll write in tomorrow's 3 tests. Praying they'll get cancelled T-T

Anyways, today I:

Finished off the computer project

Completed 20% of the English assignment

Practiced for tomorrow's English seminar

Okay, i hope I'll do good tomorrow but I have faith. So yeah.

♥️ love train! send this to all the blogs you love! don’t forget to spread the love! ♥️ (no pressure only if u want to ofc)

Heyy :)

Thanks, right back to you and kinda sorry about the late reply <3

Things I Wish Teachers Would Understand

I have a life outside of school. I may be going through health problems or mental health issues or family troubles or financial issues. Literally, I can name so many things and of course, you won't consider it because the only thing you notice is that how I've not done my homework or how I got low grades in my exams.

Grades don't define me. Or my efforts. Or my self-worth. Just because I get high grades doesn't mean I'm more smart or disciplined. And just because I get low grades doesn't mean I'm dumb or lazy.

Mental health issues are real. Really real. And they are hard to deal with.

Learning disabilities are also real. You can't just get out of it. Working hard doesn't fix it. It's a real issue.

Being an introvert is not bad. IT IS NOT BAD. Period. I do not have to speak more in class to prove that I'm paying attention. It just means that I do not want to speak. I'm fine with being quiet.

I can forget things. I can forget that assignment that was due, I can forget to do the homework. And I can definitely forget about the test.

The things you say matters. Even if it is sarcasm. Even if it is a dismissal. Sometimes, it makes me stay up late at night. Sometimes it just stays with me throughout the day. So, yes. You should speak a bit more carefully.

Grades don't show my full effort. Sometimes, I try so hard and I still don't get it right. And when you say that I should try harder? That does shatter a small part of me, not because you told me that, it just makes me feel that I'm the one who's damn stupid and that no matter how much effort I put in the work, it doesn't matter if the grades are not there.

As a student, I will of course prefer some subjects over the others. It is not a personal attack. And it is not an invitation for you to tell me something sarcastic about it.

Calling out a student on their mistakes in front of the whole class or our juniors or seniors or any other teachers is not okay. It's embarrassing to us and makes us feel bad.

Small praise does mean something. Honestly. I remember every good thing a teacher told me because I'll be honest, most don't say very nice things.

Please don't try to force things on us. Whether it be competitions, extracurriculars or anything really. It doesn't feel good.

And if there are some students who misbehave? That doesn't mean the whole class is bad. And no, collective punishments don't help.

I also appreciate when you try. Like, really. I respect you because you teach dozens of classes a day and still show up to our classes with neutral moods. You have a lot of patience for dealing with us.

I really appreciate your stories, advice and the small tips that you give about life now and then. It helps. And yes, I do remember.

I also feel that sometimes that both our expectations come crashing down. You expect us to do good. We expect you to be supportive and passionate. And it's okay to let go of your expectations sometimes.

And I know you have stresses too. You, too, have health problems, mental health issues and family issues, financial issues. I know you have the pressure of making everyone pass through the year and delivering good grades. And I have to say, I understand you. I really do.

I'm writing this because I've had so many teachers expect so much from me. And I'll be honest, that pressure broke me. Seriously broke me. I also respect teachers a lot, but it also doesn't mean I appreciate their behaviors or actions. You make up the world that we currently live in and I say this, not just as a student but as a person.

(P.S. This has been in my drafts from a long time. This was like peak exam + pressure + stress season, so don't mind the not so small rant. And no, I don't have a personal grudge against teachers.)

I love this look of your blog! <3

Heyy! :D

I'm so glad you liked it! It's Acotar themed and I'm kinda obsessed with Velaris at the moment so it seems fair xD

Anyways, thanks for taking the time and letting me know, i really appreciate it! <3

Mistakes I made in my senior year that I don't want anyone else to repeat

I made a similar post last year for junior year so if anyone wants to check that out, click here!

I missed out on a lot of fun because of studying

I was too serious, I just realised that now

Studied the whole year and did well, only to burn out during finals so take a break. The world does not burn because you left one question

Most of my conversations revolved around college which by the way will irritate people. Talk about actual things, be light hearted.

Spent a lot of time on the phone in the morning

Slept late. Do not follow this. Seriously.

Didn't take time out for myself

Got too addicted to the concept of learning from AI (I mean during learning and not assignments)

Loved the concept of productivity, ended up back firing.

My anxiety sky rocketed because of pressure

People will say sh*t, you don't have to listen to them

And sometimes when people say sh*t. Listen to them

I thought the same study methods I used for my junior year could be applied to senior year but no, I took too much time, trying to force myself to follow those methods and that heightened my frustration because they didn't work (so if something doesn't work even after a month? Your sign to revaluate)

Just because a method of studying worked for you in the past, doesn't mean it will work all the time so don't continue it.

Thought my whole happiness would come with that one freaking grade on my progress grade but newsflash? it didn't

Was forced into things I didn't like, competitions and extra curriculars mainly. Worst part? I won all the ones I participated in but it just felt worthless.

I empathized with others but I couldn't empathize with myself

Stopped giving a shit about certain things that actually mattered

I spent my whole senior year comforting others who had problems but never shared mine. And the result? Burnout plus loneliness.

Panicked during exams and ended up questioning myself too much.

My mental health deteriorated but I managed.

(Again, it is for your referencing obviously. I will look at this when I'm going to college.)

88 days left

Okay, time's flying really fast. My term exam results come on Monday or Tuesday and my accountancy teacher told me that I did really bad and that she was disappointed in me and that i should concentrate more on it.

So, I'm wondering how the heck did I do bad in a subject that I was studying almost everyday?! And then this other girl studied 3 days before the exam and got like 95+

Honestly, the paper was alright but i panicked and did some shitty things :// gonna avoid that in the future.

Today I:

Revised some Economics

Did accounts (1 and a half hours)

And yes, I'm gonna be putting extra effort from now on because it's really close to my next term exams and then it's gonna be followed by Revision exams and I have a school function on top of that.... i just wanna sit and cry honestly T-T

Projects to complete:

Economics (by Monday)

Computers (By Oct end)

Hello! I'm sara and i really love your blog! I love how you give motivations for study. My exams are so close and your blog is helping me alot. Hope you get more recognition and grow your blog. Keep going and take loves from me ❤︎ ❤︎

Hey there Sara! :D

I'm glad i could be of some help, thank you! <3

Hope you do your exams well :)

Loves right back to you! :D

You can only get ahead if you start. So this is your friendly reminder to start whatever that you've been ignoring/procrastinating.