I'm Trying To Feel All The Emotion

I kind of want to text you but I don't want to bother you.

I miss you though:)

Pain isn't there for you to ignore it

It's there for a reason

There's nothing wrong with letting it win

If it was there for you to overcome it ALL THE TIME it probably wouldn't be there

Pain is just a limit, and you have to accept it

I've accepted it too much, and now I look like this

Don't let it completely overtake you, but let it do its job

I was literally thinking the exact same thing

One of my friends asked me why I don't just try to heal myself

And I never came up with an answer

But I already had an answer, I just didn't want to sound stupid

I don't do it because I know I'm not done hurting

So I'm not going to fix myself if I'm not done breaking

The only way I can be fixed is if I'm finished breaking until I get broken down again

The only thing is, I don't think I'm going to stop breaking

And if I do it won't be soon

The other thing, if I'm going to break again then why should I rebuild myself?

Why should I take anywhere from days to years to rebuild myself when it only takes a few seconds to be broken again

And the worst part is when one part of you breaks it's almost guaranteed the rest will too

Rebuilding a person can take 10 years, breaking a person can take 10 seconds

Thats the exact reason why people would rather destroy me then help me

Which is why I thank all of my friends for being good people to me even though I'm always the depressed person in our group.

I love Ookly