I chose to waste time in a way I like, and everything aesthetic fills my soul
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T-1 day until my physics II final and the last exam of my undergraduate degree! 🎀
Remember what life is all about
I was so concerned with my final year of college, finals, entry exams, that it felt like i was going through life head bowed, just walking on autopilot and staring only at the ground
I need to remember to enjoy life more often
The exams will be there, the time will pass anyway
So i choose to spend my free time remembering that there's life outside of university and the oh-so-important future
Smell the flowers, sit in the sun, go for a walk in the rain, watch children play, dance in your room, feed some ducks or squirrels (do some research about what is ok to feed them beforehand though)
Remember what life is really about
you can learn new things every day with the courage to be unashamed of your ignorance and the good humor to tolerate being taught
Just because you have to study to achieve your dreams doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable
College has been a whole process for me. I did not know how to study, i did not know how to put effort into the right things, and most importantly, i did not know how to accept that my actions (or lack of) were the problem.
It took me years, but I've learned to accept that it's ok for me to need to study to be good when it comes to a subject, that college is a place for learning, not for being instantly good at something.
And now i can finally say that, without the subconscious frustration, i truly do enjoy learning new things, studying new subjects, and studying for the sake of knowing more, not just to pass exams.
It takes work, but it's all worth it.
New college, Oxford
the study
anki review
cardio videos & anki: sensory receptors of vasculature, board-style question, auscultation, heart sounds, cardiac cycle
the life
went for a walk outside!! easing myself back into moving my body
set goals for may
wrote in my notebooks <3
cleaned my apartment
updated ynab
Rules to not feel like shit:
sleep. for fuck's sake just sleep.
take care of your health! u can't study while being in p a i n
exercise or stretch every day please please your knees need it
do not!!!!! leave things for the last fucking minute!!!!! i beg you!!!!!
Yea guess who's feeling pain everywhere and can't barely keep her eyes open but has to cram a presentation for tomorrow!!! AGAIN!!! AAAAAA
Taking breaks is also being productive
Studying constantly only leads to burnout. Go take a walk. Feed some ducks. Admire a pretty building. Try to cook something new.
You might feel guilty at first, but nothing in excess is ever good, not even studying.
Dont forget to live life
41 more days of the semester (4/02/2025)
Crammed for my immunology exam (8 hours)
Got my allergy shotssss (another month and a half of this)
march 29th, 2025 || last weekend before classes start again so i treated myself to brunch at the bookstore cafe :)
Every page you read is a step closer to your dreams
You are smarter than you feel and you know more than you think.
Always while studying or right before an exam i feel like i don't know anything, my thoughts are all jumbled and I can't find a straight answer for a question i ask myself for funsies.
That's ok.
I've come to know that, despite feeling like i don't know anything, i hold all the necessary information. When it counts, when you have a specific problem right in front of you, you will know the answer.
You sometimes just have to trust yourself.
All work and no fun makes for a very cranky law student
Take a break
Go play cards, smell some flowers, read tarot, do a funny sketch of an animal, learn origami, dance for no reason, draw a mustache on yourself
Don't let life pass you by
Little things can make a big difference
For me it's about color schemes
I generally enjoy studying but oh boy do i love doing it when i can annotate a book with a pretty color scheme.
Makes me want to look for deeper meaning into the text, to draw diagrams and make small summaries.
Today's goal is finding small reasons for happiness in everything and anything
Just because you have to study to achieve your dreams doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable
College has been a whole process for me. I did not know how to study, i did not know how to put effort into the right things, and most importantly, i did not know how to accept that my actions (or lack of) were the problem.
It took me years, but I've learned to accept that it's ok for me to need to study to be good when it comes to a subject, that college is a place for learning, not for being instantly good at something.
And now i can finally say that, without the subconscious frustration, i truly do enjoy learning new things, studying new subjects, and studying for the sake of knowing more, not just to pass exams.
It takes work, but it's all worth it.
some biology notes from last semester 🦎
Alex Dimitrov, from "Love“
1/30/2025
Snowy mornings & busy afternoons.
Whenever I take a break from reading because I'm too lazy and return to it later, I'm always surprised. Because I really really find my courses interesting and I love reading and finding out more things about it. I'm always like "I didn't want to read this??"
Anyways, I'm locked in again! I have to catch up on A LOT of classes, so wish me speed. I also have a test by the end of this month and I've not started prepping for it. And it's PSYCHOLOGY! Oh well
21.01.25
I am so busy with exams and can't wait for the next two weeks to be over. Also a lot of big stressful things are coming up but I need to remember that they will pass just like all the other big stressful things did.
Imagine getting to the point in life where YOU are your own vision board; where you are that girl who has the life that you want, and you don't have to seek it out through other people. That should be the ultimate goal.
Here are subtle things that you should be doing to channel your ideal person and improve yourself for the better FROM THE INSIDE
take care of your hygiene: brush your teeth every day, wash your face with soap, wash your hair, take meaningful showers
be kind to yourself: speak nicely to yourself, treat yourself every now and then, love yourself exactly the way you came
make the effort: do your hair and wear something cute, even if you're only going to the supermarket. I bet your ideal self looks stunning wherever she goes, so make that effort if you really want to become her
move your body: dance to some music for just 5 minutes, take a walk, get off the bus a (reasonable) few stops earlier and walk the rest of the way
romanticise the hell out of your life: wear those bows, create that vision board, play that aesthetic background music even if you're just washing the dishes, wear that outfit!!!!!
admire yourself: look at yourself in the mirror and remember what you look like, take a million selfies to look back and smile at, give yourself a compliment every time you pass your reflection
get creative: if you want cute decor, make it! if you want cute clothes, find some easy DIYs!
focus on what you can control: if you cannot change the situation, let it resolve itself. don't waste your precious time obsessing over something you cannot change
get to know yourself (again): rediscover your hobbies, try new activities, learn to appreciate your solitude, get out of your shell
I really wish I was part of a community like this when I was going through a really insecure and lonely phase of my life.
Instead of deciding to wake up a 3am every day from now on, and trying to reach 20k steps every day, start small and walk your way up to greatness!
Just because you have to study to achieve your dreams doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable
College has been a whole process for me. I did not know how to study, i did not know how to put effort into the right things, and most importantly, i did not know how to accept that my actions (or lack of) were the problem.
It took me years, but I've learned to accept that it's ok for me to need to study to be good when it comes to a subject, that college is a place for learning, not for being instantly good at something.
And now i can finally say that, without the subconscious frustration, i truly do enjoy learning new things, studying new subjects, and studying for the sake of knowing more, not just to pass exams.
It takes work, but it's all worth it.
10.11.24
i'm procrastinating on my homework as i'm writing this this
reflections on my two weeks living in nyc again, feat. 192 books, a really cool bookstore i found in chelsea 💗 i'm still figuring out the trajectory of this blog but once i start work (tomorrow, eep!), this may just turn into a workblr or nyc "travel" tumblr??
lizpop_art
Now that I'm back at uni again it feels appropriate to revive this account :) I don't know how my desk is already this messy.