'negativity Is The Enemy Of Creativity' - David Lynch

miller study based on pw reference. the first attempt was atrocious, then i traced it from the reference and tried to replicate the proportions twice more. still not satisfied but getting there. at least the traced one looks nice

Every few years remember about the Metal Gear franchise, go through the games, read the lore again. This year I found the MGS1 artbook I got when I was 11, and now not being 11 and looking back through it I’ve really gone on a journey of wonderment and confusion looking at the early versions of everything. LET ME SHOW YOU HOW:

Extreme Fishin’ Miller

Casual Snake

Rad Liquid & Sad Liquid

Good ol’ Faceless Frank

Mantis concepts feat. such strong looks as ‘lunchbreak’, ‘invisible handcuffs’, and ‘dick sounds’.

Otacon and Otacon run through a tiny face filter.

/These/

Snake-Meryl (Sneryl) and Flamethrower Mei Ling who I am ASHAMED do not exist

Utterly terrifying Veiny Raven and less terrifying Mange Raven

And of course, Punk Rock Mantis.

metal gir

doktorr has expressed a wish to have an appearance of an attractive woman at least twice.

so called transhumanists when you inquire which exactly limitations of their body they'd like to transcend, amirite?)0

text and more cringe sketches below

today's results are bad ngl but i'm glad i did it anyway. got a lot of men pics for the last sketch lately, so today i skipped pics until there was a woman. didn't draw her nice but whatever. both of my common issues - small feet and too long torsos - are present. this is supposed to be a bad art diary to make other people less shy, so here it goes. also i liked the shorter sketches (pics 1 and 2).

the most cringe are the 3-5 minute ones below:

mb i should practice drawing women specifically. although might take a break from drawing - or not, will see how it goes.

this was a fun study. i think i'm finished with this photo, might try different ones in the future. looks a lot less white washed to me (or did look at some point, lol), although he still has the white man stare (one eye at least) and his lips are too full, as well as many other minor mistakes. anyway i improved and i'm glad.

the boss herself craved "to make the world one again" which is not necessarily peace tbh, since the "being one" earlier in question is an alliance towards common enemy and she didn't shy away from nuking a place. but i agree that he's confused, trying to figure out stuff at least, ending up sometimes doing the thing his rivals did (you might be amused by portable ops antagonist if you play it).

i like that many things don't happen suddenly in metal gear games plot and am inclined to think there was no vital turning point for big boss and he was moving towards what he became steadily since mgs3. another thing i like about mgs is how war inevitably changes characters for worse (some disagree tho) - snake went from being a cheerful mischievous fella to a bit grumpy but still discussing che guevara with miller and calling support while wearing silly camo on missions, to the point when a smile looks unnatural and even uncanny on him. but there's no distinct event that caused that - it's a consequence of his war lifestyle which guarantees him one harsh event/decision after another, wearing him out and numbing his cheerful nature, despite that nature being probably the thing that set him on the path of becoming big boss in the first place. and miller going from a success culture, charming playful slut to the angry guy wearing gajillion clothing layers and refusing prosthetics and ability to return to field work, to hopefully a still angry but somewhat independent and happily (in my dreams lol) married with a kid guy, to divorced and assassinated without a chance to even see the man behind it bc he would be lucky to end up dying some other way. huey from being pushed around and having no self respect to learning to stand up for himself, calling out diamond dogs on treating things differently than they might be, but then killing himself anyway due to child abuse in his family or his wife "cheating" on him or news about death of big boss (i don't believe it's a coincidence). anyway i have only experienced war as a civilian and far from front lines but exaggerated individual glory and mystic/sci-fi stuff aside, i think big boss is pretty normal given his assumed initial views and the experience he'd been through that formed him further.

tbh no one in mgs is morally ok and i think one doesn't get to be a warlord and also ethically good and kind, but i wouldn't be surprised if the canon implied reason for big boss being vilified that much in mgs world mass culture is cia backed to justify destroying the only nuclear power left or smth and is not a direct consequence of his wrongdoings. in mg2 his former enemies tell solid snake that big boss is a good man, which can be just the cult stuff ofc but could as well be their genuine informed opinion.

p.s. also i doubt venom snake would be a great dad tbh, he looked at a child soldier and called him a natural lol

Venom's arc explained in a picture from the player's perspective

Playing MGSV:TPP you have 2 choices:

You can be good or bad. You can kill, destroy, use and do everything in your power to be the worst person alive. You can be kind, you can save animals, kids, soldiers, grow a family and be a respectable man.

There's actually no choice. There's no two-tracks. The ending is the same. History will see you as a villain. You are a villain. You are, currently, the perfect depiction of the most wanted and most evil man alive, according to the world.

You have no lever. You cannot stop this from happening. Either close your eyes or watch, the ending will be the same. Your life will end in misery. The only relief? Boss will pat your shoulder and let you die with a false sense of accomplishment. Congrats. That's the panthom pain everybody talks about.

a thing that playful and graceful can be nothing but a horse to me i sorry (jk ofc it's also a metal gear to me)

also wdym it was bipedal? when? or do all pw ai weapons count as peace walker stages?

finding out the answer to what is a metal gear is far more vibes based if i dont take the bipedal nuclear weapon description. why the fuck isnt peacewalker listed as a metal gear on the wiki she should count !

Calling my gf “girlfriend” in the same cadence Solid Snake would say “colonel” is so fun

wow shading in digital is just like painting (i am bad af at it and don't understand how it's done). i think i have learnt something towards the end of my attempt to shade it, but not nearly enough ofc. big shaded areas are especially hard for me (look at his thigh lol). didn't do a full hour of practice but did some quick doodles and then ~10 minutes or so of 3 layer image (line of action and other messy lines, the outline and my attempt at shading). at least it got fun enough in the end for me to see next digital practice as a fun activity and not just something necessary.

anyway, never give up, i will get there some day and so will you