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I need to rant for a moment:
AROACE IS A SPECTRUM, NOT A BINARY
As someone who is on the AroAce spectrum myself, it’s beyond frustrating that people claim to advocate for AroAce rights and representation don’t understand this.
The Aromatic spectrum can mean someone isn’t interested in romance at all to someone(like me) who only wants a romantic relationship after developing a deep connection.
The Asexual spectrum can mean someone is repulsed by sex and sexual things, to someone who is okay with having sex and doing sexual things while having no sexual desires themselves.
I understand that some people are just misinformed but I’ve seen some genuine animosity floating around in the Hazbin Hotel fandom specifically.
Alastor is canonically AroAce, but we don’t know what points are of the spectrums he’s on. On top of that Vivzipop herself has stated she’s okay with people shipping Alastor with other characters
In addition to that, QPR(queer platonic relationships) exist.
New in my world: dad is a misogynist because of double standards 🙄
Like... I get it. You are almost a 60 year old white man. You are in excruciating physical pain (he really is).
You are pissed that women are allowed to look at a male gymnast's crotch and be like,'I wanna bang', but men can not look and say the same thing about female gymnasts.
In fact, saying you want to bust them in the face with a baseball bat and then a giant dildo is tooooootally normal.
Not deep-rooted misogyny at all 🙄
This man accuses me of being a misandrist just because I'm a feminist, defend what women wear, and want humanity to be granted the same opportunities that rich white men have had for years... you know.. being a decent fucking human?
I’m so tired of fake smiles and happiness. Plastic emotions and friendliness, when in fact I am so empty inside.
I’m tired of saying I’m fine, when I haven’t felt fine in such a long time. I hate to lie, but what I hate more is, being a pussy and being that one depressing friend or family member. And I hate, that I am such a people pleaser, always trying to make everyone happy except myself.
I despise myself and I am for once fine with that, but I just want to be left alone while I do that.
love being a traumagenic endo system, like yeah I needed a friend and caretaker to help me through my trauma so bad because others dismissed it and I couldn’t get out much and didn’t get the socialisation I needed so I became plural but in the Tulpa way not a DID way.
Sure love when people say we endo systems are DID/disorder fakers
even when we never claim to have the disorder in the first place…
Even when we use the term “endo” “willogenic” or whatever to specifically say that we aren’t claiming to have DID or any sort of disorder…
sure do love when other systems say we are ruining the community by existing and that it’s our fault not the fault of the people who hate on systems and call us fake, weird, and delusional...
sure do love people saying we’re fetishising disability and mental health when tulpas- for us especially, help with our mental health issues and again, we aren’t trying to be any more disordered than we are. We don’t want DID, we are happy as we are, which isn’t DID.
i feel like the most obnoxious person on the planet when i reblog someone's posts
i have a feeling that everyone hates me when i do and whenever someone comes across my posts they hate me too
i don't tumblr right anymore. i wish it was as fun as it was when i was younger
it's my time to ramble, feel free to scroll if you don't wanna read an entire essay on gangle and jax lol (seriously, this turned out to be 900 words long lmao)
also don't send hate to bibi for her opinion, the fact someone called her a MISOGYNIST for disliking a CHARACTER is insane it's giving me flashbacks
as a gangle fan (and as someone who relates to her a lot) AND a jax fan, i had some stuff on my mind hope you don't mind bibi
people tend to generally say that gangle is a victim, but a lot of people fail to mention that they're all victims. gangle, jax, ragatha, pomni, zooble, kinger, everybody who's abstracted, they're ALL victims and what they are going through is absolutely traumatic. and with trauma, people cope in different ways
jax's main way of coping is putting down others, this is obviously clear. he pranks, he teases, he bullies because that's his way of coping with the traumatic situation they're in. to avoid others seeing him as weak, and to avoid seeing himself as weak, he becomes the one to torment. gangle, being reserved, somewhat isolated and, let's admit it, a doormat is the perfect target for jax.
not only is gangle clearly more emotional than jax and will easily deliver the kind of reaction he wants to see, but she does not fight back. zooble will talk back, ragatha will argue, pomni will fight back, but gangle will not. she does not fight back because she believes that she can't. she sees herself just as small as jax sees her. not only does gangle see herself as small and weak, she has never gotten the chance to be anything but that, at least that's what i assume. she's probably never had the chance to be a leader, to be strong, to have control. so when she gets that in ep4, she gets hungry for more
there's almost an immediate shift in gangle when she becomes the manager of spudsy's. obviously there's the mask and her more chipper attitude, but there's also the fact that she immediately loses that fear she has of talking back to jax. she rarely, if not NEVER, talks back to him and his bullying, she usually just accepts it or takes it. but when he dumps ragatha in the air fryer she immediately jumps the gun to tell him off, to test the waters if you will. she immediately pushes further by calling caine to prepare a punishment and that's when she realizes how much power she truly holds. a kind of power she's presumably never had before and that she's been unknowingly craving for the longest time.
gangle honestly reminds me a bit (a VERY TINY bit) of this character from a movie i watched in my english class, barris from "the experiment (2010)". the movie itself is somewhat of a retelling of a version of the stanford prison experiment, but if i were to go into detail we'd be here all day lmao. when we see barris in the beginning of the movie he's a very nice man. he's well-dressed, very polite and quite extroverted. he almost immediately is seen as an ally by the main character. we also learn that barris, who's in his 40s, still lives with his mother and she clearly still bosses him around. when he is assigned role of prison guard and realizes how much power he has he immediately becomes the biggest threat there. i feel like the way gangle switches up is quite similar(tho it could be because of her manic state). the moment she gets this power that she's (again, presumably) never had before she takes advantage of that and punishes jax the way that she feels she has been punished by him.
no matter if jax hurt her first, hurting him back was not an excusable action. hurting him is not something good or a win for gangle. she's stooping down to his level. he uses bullying to cope and gangle, who probably doesn't even HAVE a coping mechanism besides drawing, saw an opportunity to do the same and took advantage of it. gangle never had power in the first place, jax took away even more of that and when gangle had even an ounce of power, she pounced. she did not "give him a taste of his own medicine", she beat him down just like he beats her.
i don't think gangle is a bad person. i don't think jax is a bad person either. however, their behavior is extremely self destructive. people tend to always say "gangle's the victim!" or "jax's the victim!" when both of them are wrong. they're BOTH victims, they just choose to run away from the fear of being said victim by making OTHERS the victims. if they can't have control over their situation, they will have control over others. they will have control.
also as a final lil note. if you excuse or defend gangle's actions because of her manic episode or because she has bpd or something, you are not a good person. i do not have bpd myself, however i am autistic and when i see people use my/their disability as an excuse it feels fucking terrible. people like that, people who use mental illnesses or disabilities as a tool to get away with their own terrible decisions and actions, are only contributing to the daily harassment and discrimination we face. by blaming your shitty actions on your disability instead of taking responsibility, you are actively giving more fuel to the fire and are making me and the others look bad. YOU are contributing to the discrimination the REST OF US face and you are disgusting for that. do not blame a grown ass adult's shitty decisions on their disability or mental illnesses. they may be explanations, but will NEVER be excuses. fuck you if you do that, seriously. grow the fuck up
People who defend Gangle for her actions in episode 4 with the "she was having a manic episode!" excuse piss me off so hard
"B B B B But I'm LITERALLY neurodivergent AND a minor 🥺" OH MY GOD SHUT THE FUCK UPPP!!! YOU ARE STILL RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR ACTIONS EVEN IF YOU HAVE A MENTAL DISORDER!!
God Gangle is unbelievably selfish to me and I hate how nobody else sees it. I hate how her first question to Pomni at the end of episode 3 was "Did you remember to get my comedy mask?" GIRL??? Pomni went through a genuinely traumatizing experience and you're worried about your fucking mask?
At least Jax's first question to Pomni after he got out of the ropes was "What was it like being stuck with the nutcase?" Like, dare I say it's oddly sweet of him to ask about Pomni's experience with Kinger? He's obviously being sarcastic/playful.
I'm actually just gonna say it; Gangle is more selfish than Jax is. You can come kill me now but you can't run from the truth
Also in the pilot, Jax didn't know Kaufmo abstracted before y'know, they found out, and to me it's kind of cute how he wanted to introduce Pomni to one of his friends.
I mean, Jax isn't an angel by any means, he has his flaws, but he's not malicious at all. In fact I think he wants Pomni to have a good time too in the circus, he just speaks a different language that I'm sure she'd be willing to learn, given her track record with all the others.
Sorry if this upset some Gangle fans but I mean, "Jax apologist" isn't in my bio for no reason.
idk why it annoys me so much - when people unfollow you but they don't soft block/hard block you. like if u need to unfollow me for any reasons that's fine - curate your space. i legit support everyone doing that. i want everyone to have a happy and healthy environment.
but why you gotta make me go through the work of unfollowing you as well? cries.
TW : rant/dump
I’m not fishing for anything, I just really needed to say this, and I’m not willing to put it on anyone I know. Please don’t read this if you’re unwell. I don’t want to add to anyone else’s struggle
I just needed to get off my chest,
This couple weeks have been… not good.
My grandma has been making sui/homi threats when she can’t get more pain meds, my grandpa is obsessed with conspiracy politics and won’t keep it to himself, my mom depends on me emotionally
My shelf came off the wall and broke my file box and shattered a glass frame all over the floor
I spilled soda so incredibly that it got on my carpet, walls, floor, the bottom of my bed (?), my printer, my extension cord, my yarn basket, and so many other places I keep finding
I ruined an entire load of clothes with chapstick, it will not come out, and my mom tossed them
My air purifier itself has started smelling like mold despite upkeep
My windowsill is covered in mold and my plaster is cake and even my carpenter uncle can’t figure out my Schrödinger studs
Because of all these things I’ve been having to fix or account for on top of my medical bills and car bills and insurance bills I can’t even quite make it paycheck to paycheck
I don’t have the time or money to take care of procedures I’m supposed to have done already
My doctor says I’m in the chronic pain of someone twice my age and that my job isn’t going to work for me in the long term and my job is trying to shove me out but I can’t find another job that won’t kill my mental health, physical health, or support me financially
Im just stuck,
I’m stuck.
TW: homophobia, transphobia, and swearing ig
some (cishet) people are so fucking quick to say “LGBTQ PEOPLE NEED RIGHTS!!”, “ TRANS MEN ARE MEN AND TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN!!” But then they go off and do everything to ruin their lives. Like they will talk about shit they don’t even know about just to fuck with some trans person, misgender someone, make fun of someone’s pronouns or sexuality when it doesn’t AND SHOULDNT concern them AT ALL
Ok- don't get me wrong and no offense to anyone whatsoever, but your grandmas a total asshole! Complaining about the smallest microscopic bits of dust and telling that your a total lazy bitch?! Now thats just too far like- way too far, and what your grandmas complainst are just total bullshit! If at any point i hear one more of your grandma shit talking the piss out of you with shit words, I'd beat her ass if I were there! If I were you I'd definitely feel the same thing.
As if now I think I'm feeling the same thing as you buddy...and please...don't try to kill yourself nor any bad things to yourself. This world ain't perfect without you and you know it. It's alright to cry, Crying is a normal human response to a whole range of emotions that has a number of health and social benefits, including pain relief and self-soothing effects. Try to talk to a therapist or friends/families for any of your problems. Maybe they can help with what your dealing with right now...
Try to keep yourself away from those kinds of bad stuff that your grandma tells you about, your already perfect, even if you say you aren't and try to keep yourself positive k?
Im not very good at comforting other people but hope this just helps...
Finally someone understands me![no offence has been taken, I honestly agree]
I told this to my friend and they laughed at my face and called me a narcissist. They said I was to sensitive and that someone out there was dealing with something worse than my situation. I stopped being friends with them since.
I've had worse experiences with my grandmothers. The older one is [Y] and the youngest one is [K].
Me and [K]'s relationship is shit! It was in the morning and she made us breakfast. It was Wheat-Bix™ and since it was a whole week eating it, I got sick of it. I told her that I did want Wheat-Bix™ and you know what she did… SHE THREW A SHOE RIGHT AT MY EYE! Ever since then, I had trouble seeing properly and got headaches whenever my eye hurts. I told my mother and she said that it would get better… THAT WAS 3 YEARS AGO!
Then there's [Y] and I fucking hate her!
Whenever [Y] heard that I did do my work, she would hit me in here office or Infront of the whole class! She once saw me on my phone instead of doing my work[I have a short attention span] and she was pissed. She said that if I continued this, I would become a poor drug dealer and that i would get raped. She said that nobody would care about me and that I would kill myself in the future. Then the next day she wants to act like it's all sunshine and rainbows… SHE SAID TO ME THAT SHE WAS PROTECTING ME AND THAT IT WAS A LECTURE!
WHAT FUCKING LECTURE WOULD TELL SOMEONE THAT THEY WOULD BE RAPED?!
Then there's my mental illness.
I suffer from ADHD and autism and my family members only think that I have ADD. I try and tell them but they just tell me "oh [TOMMIE], You don't have ADHD, stop being a clout chaser" or "this is just an excuse because you don't wanna do your homework".
Then there's my Grade 7 English teacher.
Whenever somebody where to talk in class he would say "Y'all must have ADHD because you guys just want attention". I wanted to take out my scissors and stab him!
Anyways, I don't like my family members. Thank you Chain for understanding.
RANT
I swear, if my grandmothers complain about the littlest thing one more time, it's gonna be a bloody massacre.
Those bitches will complain for about anything!
I come back home and relax: You're just a lazy prick, setting up yourself for failure!
I write slow to avoid mistakes: You're as slow as a tortoise!
I write fast and make mistakes: You're handwriting looks like a donkey's ass!
My room looks a bit messy: What are you, a PIG?! Even a monkey's room looks better than this! You're a female, act like one!
I ask them to remove a certain food from my plate, since a I vomit because of it: You're ungrateful, [TOMMIE]! There are children out there who are starving!
I fail to clean something right: You're a female, [TOMMIE]! You should know how to clean this!
I fall asleep early: Oh, so you wanna be like [LINDOR] now, huh?
I fall asleep late: What are you, an owl?!
And then they call me swear words.
Bloody shit, dumbass, fuck idiot, dip shit, retarded, stupid fuck shit and more.
I'm gonna go insane because of them!
VENT
[WARNING: Mentions of s*icide]
If someone were to as me "How are you?", you'll expect to say "I'm fine!" but I'm not.
My puppy Maximus[who was a month old] got poisoned and passed away and my dog Bruno got kidnapped by S[I'll not refer to his name, he'll be called "S"]. I swear, if something happens to Ricky[my other dog], I'll fuckin' kill myself. I already hate 2024 :)
