Brain: It Seems Like Problems Are Happening. Would You Like To Pretend They’re Not And Think About

Told all my friends I was going to bed and ended up having anpanic attack an hour lster with no guts to reach out to anyone :”) I feel like im dying ans my brain is convinced Im dying and I feel two seconds from bursting into tears and calling my FP to have him calm me down..But I wont. Ill just lay here suffering in fear because I just cant bring myself to do things..

opportunity.

This sudden ‘nazi’ drama is really stupid. I don’t even believe @decayplush​ is even a real nazi. They just actually want the abuse you guys are sending them because they are mentally unwell and thrive off that. That is literally so obvious. Look at the way their whole blog flow changed when they realized the more they could offend the more negative abuse they get. If you even look at their archive they only posted like one photo, and that got attention and they realized they could use that to feed whatever abusive crave they have and are using it to get their fix. They probably don’t even have a boyfriend, and if they do I’m pretty sure they aren’t even a Nazi anyway. Everyone needs to chill because it’s really fucking stupid and all you are doing is putting fuel on a fire. Yes, actual real Nazis are fucking horrible and are literally scum but you guys need to open your eyes and see shit for what it is instead of seeing one thing that triggers you and trying to be keyboard warriors like “U sHaReD tHiS?? U NaZi?? DiE!” without taking a moment to look at the bigger picture. People are just so quick to hop on the discourse trains dick because internet drama is fun. Just admit it. Like @pxiince shared a piece of art, big whoop. The swastika wasn't even originally the symbol of the Nazi and was STOLEN and tainted. It needs to be taken back as the sacred religious symbol that it was for 5,000 years and actual Nazis, ignorant quick-tempered people, and edgy fuckheads can just die mad about it. 

I... i cant.. i cant.. anymore...

I failed again.. I failed again..aGAIN

I just want to die pleaseI dont wanna be here i dont wanna be alive anymore i just wanna die i just wanna die it all hurts too bad let this life be over please fucking pleasePLEASE

I got in a bit of work today. But also apparently I am having a sciatica flare up in my left leg. Not fun. Sharp pain from my back going down to my calf/side of my leg. But I have to sit here and get this work done. Bleh.

I hate when I get told this. Especially by my own mother, who knows I’m sick. And has the same thing because fuck genetics sometimes right? So..Its like...I have a chronic disorder??? My own existence is an exhausting painful battle???? You should know this as well as anyone??? Smdh

Conversations with abled people I'm sick of

Me, chronically ill: Gosh, I’m so exhausted.

Abled person: YOU’RE tired????? *I* worked all day!

I only want human contact from the person I’m attached to…other than that I’d rather be alone.