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Carnivore

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Do you ever feel like a starving carnivore?

What do you mean?

Well, sometimes, very rarely mind you, but once in a blue moon I get into this mood where I like, feel like I wanna eat organs or some shit. Not a random person though, I'm not Jeffery Dahmer! It's like I wanna eat myself? Like I get a rage and my head gets filled with violent gore and screaming and I wanna tear flesh from bone like I'm a wild animal or a monster or something, but in a weird way at the same time I always wanna be torn apart myself, feel the pain, I desire it. I tend to eat gas station meats when I feel like that, viciously rip it with my teeth, sometimes I get cheetos or takis too and it's like I'm breaking through bones, and in a weird way, I'm not me anymore. I'm a monster tearing myself apart. I'm a ravenous creature feasting on fresh meat and chewing through bones and drinking in the viscous blood. I'm me and I'm the monster I run from, I'm the monster and the meat.

When it ends it helps, I feel better, I'm not mad anymore, the monster is fed and it can go back to it's cage for a long time before it inevitably begins to starve again.

I don't know how to get rid of the monster that desires so desperately sometimes to eat me and begs for a visceral mess of carnage. I don't think I could deny it forever no matter how hard I tried. I can delay it, I don't open that cage until I am home, but the monster won't let me rest if I don't feed it eventually, fake meat, fake blood, fake bones, for the imaginary monster. I don't know how to get rid of the desire to be torn apart by it.

Like I said, it doesn't happen often, and I never hurt anyone in reality, I don't even hurt anyone in my head, the monster eats me, I am the monster, I only eat myself. I don't know what that means though.

The best way I can describe it is feeling like a starving carnivore.

Carnotaurus, just without an interesting background

We wanna talk about something real quick.

Tw/cw? (Not really warnings[?], but we don't know what to call them): Meat, "diets" [in terms of like what you eat], and vegan and vegetarian.

We aren't morally wrong or bad for not being able to go vegan or vegetarian (no one specifically said this kind of thing but a lot of vegans/vegetarian posts tend to have this vibe to it for us).

We aren't able to be vegan or vegetarian for multiple reasons. Firstly, overall, we are just carnivorous/omnivorous. Secondly, we also have sensory issues to do with food due to some of our disabilities (AuDHD). Thirdly, we just can't give up meat at all, like we just can't.

We are not evil or bad for this. We love animals so much, but because of reasons going vegan or vegetarian is not an option. If anyone doesn't like this, go ahead and block us. If anyone sends any hate to us over this, we will block them.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾