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Bonnie knows what you are Siff... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 🌈 more stupid isat doodles are on the way lmao, and i also found a new way to use my favourite pen in Medibang, which is closer to my traditional inking style :]

i have to draw bonnie and the rest of the cast soon so look forward to that lmao

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I've been seeing people's designs for the other party's 'Loops' if they were the only ones in the time loop and hear me out

What if instead of them all being different kinds of stars/start phases, they were all different astronomical objects?

Like Siffrins Loop is still a star, but maybe Odiles Loop is a moon, Bonnies is an asteroid, Mirabelles is a planet, and Isabeaus is a comet (I just came up with random ones for all of them so ofc they're probably not exactly that, but you get the idea, right?)

Idk I just think it'd be cool if the thing they turn into changes based on their personality or something :P

Something amazing about In Stars and Time is how it makes you feel what Siffrin feels.

And yes, when you go through Act 5 and everything breaks down that's cool.

But when Siffrin feels loved and safe, I think that's what's special. That's what makes this game and these characters so special to me.

As someone who, too, had a similar feeling of feeling unlovable for a very long time. This game really healed that part of me.

When the timeloops start, and Siffrin clings to being useful, you still feel little bits of love. Small, barely there, a little distanced, because Siffrin feels distanced. But it's still there. The party looks out for you, pays attention to you, makes stupid jokes with you.

As you go through, you feel love through Loop. Loop who despite all the teasing and bullying helps. Helps the person who they so wish they could be. The one who holds their own heart, who has the family they lost. Loop reaches out to you, reminds you, you're here, I see you. It hurts, but I see you. And I will always see you and sit with you. And I will keep you from becoming as detached as I did, whether that be by annoying you or having a heart to heart or just yapping in general.

You feel love from the head housemaiden. That cruel kind as she weeps for your situation, and crys tears you can not. As she apologizes over and over again. Euphrasies loves by showing you the painful kind of mercy, the one that stabs you in your heart and makes you want to scream, because she loves through pity. Through pitying you and your suffering. No matter how much it hurts it is love nonetheless.

And finally, in the end, after everything you've done, after everything you went through. You feel love again. This time in your face, so burning and bright that you can not ignore it, you feel loved from the very people you loved from the start. The party who runs in to save you, despite everything you said. Who tells you it's ok, you were going insane, we may be a little mad at what you said, but in the end that doesn't matter. Because we love you. And man, when they really showed the unconditional love, I was going to cry. Because a love like that, especially one with the party, is so hard to find. And it's so precious.

Finally, you see love, one more time. Twohats. The Loop fight. Loop, who is trying to kill you, Loop who is so jealous because that is the love they so wanted. They want their family back. Loop who despite everything. They still can't kill Siffrin. Siffrin, who despite being forced to fight again, who could drop dead at any moment because of his craft exhaustion, refuses to oblige Loops request. They both refuse to kill. Because they still love each other. Siffrin who pulls Loop into a hug, and apologizes. Apologizes to who they once were, the Siffrin who should've gotten this. The one who had their family and their heart stolen from them. The Siffrin who never got to feel love. He thanks who they are now, Loop. For sticking with them despite everything. Who watched Siffrin, guided them, gave them a shoulder to cry on, bantered with them so Siffrin did not lose himself. Who despite everything, still decided to help. Siffrin isn't mad at Loop, because Siffrin knows, he would do the same. Siffrin gives Loop back all the love they gave. He let's Loop move on, knowing they're loved. That they always have been. Loop accepts that their family is gone, that they loved them all the same. They learn that even with them gone, they were still loved. Loop is allowed to be happy as they leave.

And isn't that just what this game is about? That no matter what, everyone deserves to be loved. To know it too, and to be happy. And that's what healed me a bit. Because if even the King, who spent his days weeping for a kingdom long gone, who lost all his family and could not build a new one, who froze everything in time, was still able to know and remember the love he had in the end, then why can't I? Why can't anyone? If even the ones who hated and cried and destroyed everything, the ones who hid it all until they couldn't, who didn't understand their emotions and felt trapped within a construct, who didn't feel like them no matter how much they changed, then can't we, too, love and be loved?

This game shows that love does not have to be romantic, does not have to be displayed in any way, is not something earned, but is a basic right for all of us. And for that, I thank it.

Oh yeah lemme just

The world deserves to see the shitty doodles that is my banner

In case you can't read my handwriting :>

Mal Du Pays: 'This Journey Was Only Meaningful to You' in red

Mirabelle: Holding up Garlic Bread as it glows like the holy grail it is. 'Garlic Bread' is written in all caps.

Sleepy Siffrin: 'honk shooooooo, honk shooooooo'

Loop: They are labeled as 'about to kill themselves'

Bonnie: An arrow calling their chef cooker hat 'Samosa storage'

Weepy Isabeau: The doodle is labeled with 'That Feeling When your crush gives you a flower'

Odile and Birb: Odile is thinking 'Piou Piou :>', the bird also says 'Piou Piou'. The note translating the birb says, 'I'm gonna poop on you later'

Spooped Mirabelle and Isabeau: they are staring shocked by the bird going, 'Peep!'

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS YALLL

I was able to participate in the @isat-secretsanta-2024 and my secret Santa was @kimdokjafan :D

I had a lot of fun with your request, it was super cool to explore Loops feelings!

I hope you like it!!

[You got the Travellers Hat back! Don't lose it again, Stardust!]

(You got the Family Portrait! You'll always treasure this)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY IN STARS AND TIME

I might go and try to get these out of the sketchbook later, but I wanted to post something today so I'll shove them here for now!!

It came to me in a dream + the ref

Ref translation by @q-talations !!!

the five! (sorry if the quality’s bad)

Here’s everyone individually:

Oops all creatures AU

Isat au where none of the party members are human

(under read more because it's long)

First off, we have Mirabelle, the Angel

Notes:

As an angel, she was born in the domain of a god to serve them and their followers. She is an angel of the Change God, who is very lax in what they require of their angels.

As an otherworldly creature, she is able to see color

She can sense and "see" ambient craft energy as well as the craft inside of people/creatures (post about how craft works in my aus is a wip)

She is an "angel in training," and was currently working as a housemaiden on Earth to learn about humans and their view on the Change religion

She is still the Change God's favorite \(^w^)/

Isabeau, the Beastfolk

Notes:

Beastfolk are one of the most common non-humans in Vaugarde

Isabeau is the closest to human of any members of the party (besides Siffrin, of course) but still possesses inhuman strength and senses even in his human form

"Beast form" is a more monstrous version of a wolfdog, with a bulky, muscular build, and large paws.

Changing between forms requires the use of craft, but neither form requires craft to maintain.

NOT a werewolf, he is unaffected by the full moon, and transformation between forms are completely voluntary

Odile, the Dragon

Notes:

She is a mix between an Eastern and a Western dragon

She prefers to hide her dragon traits whenever possible, constantly using craft to hide them, even when alone with the group. (This is Not Healthy and takes a lot of energy to keep up all the time, leaving her fatigued and weaker than she otherwise should be.)

She still has similar issues with heritage, although a bit different and this time Dragon Flavored

Dragons are viewed very differently in Vaugarde compared to Ka Bue. Dragons are seen very favorably in Ka Bue, while in Vaugarde they are often viewed more fearfully, despite their overall welcoming attitude towards non-humans.

Bonnie, the Harpy

Notes:

I was initially debating between making them a harpy or a selkie, but I settled on harpy because I wanted them to be more visibly inhuman (also they can be wing buddies with Mirabelle :3)

Nille was very protective of them. Living in a coastal town at the edge of Vaugarde, non-humans were less accepted, especially by foreign sailors.

They are a little baby bird and have frequent pinfeathers throughout their wings and hair

And Siffrin, the only human!

...for now

I have a few things I've been working on for this AU that I've been waiting to post until I had this complete, so if this interests you there will be more soon :D

even more ms paint doodles! This time with bonnie :D

have a nice little bonnie doodle they are free from the horrors. they are happy

go forth my bonnie btw as always my ask requests are open!! im kinda sapped for ideas so would love if yall dropped something in there :)

Crab off! --gives your Loop a mouth-- because in this family not eating Bonnie's food is a crime.

So, remember this comic I did the other day? At first it was just gonna be a random Odile looping au comic, but then I said "what if the family DOES interact with Loop in the fic I'm writing?" And this happened.

A little explanation (cause I don't know when will I finish this fic so I may as well tell the story in comics or something):

We apply the 'teams' here (beauty alliance and opposite sides of the age spectrum alliance). That means (since act 4) Mirabelle knows Isabeau is looping, Isabeau knows Mirabelle is looping; Odile knows Bonnie is looping and Bonnie knows Odile is looping; but no one knows EVERYONE is looping (I will assume this makes sense).

Why hasn't Loop say anything about this to the other family members? Because.

Why hadn't they told Siffrin that the rest of the party is looping? Because Siffrin knows already but he's in negation, to put it simple (and because something something they know Siffrin would mcblinding lose it and they don't want that)

I'm also gonna add the little fact that Loop's mask only works with Siffrin, and it slips a bit TOO often with the rest of the family.

Are you seeing the possible drama??? Do you see my vision???

Anyways, full and alt text under cut, I'm going to sleep or finish that hollow knight skin, whatever comes first BYE

Alt text:

First page:

- First panel shows Bonnie bringing Loop a plate of dumplings. Loops is sitting at the favor tree (they're wearing Odile's coat from the previous comic)

Bonnie: "Star head!"

Loop: "don't call me that kid."

Bonnie: "I bring you. Dumplings."

- Second panel shows Loop with a sad expression holding one of the dumplings

Loop: "Aww Bon-bon...

thank you but... I don't think I can eat anything at all" (whispering: "I don't have a mouth")

A text pointing at Loop says "trying not to burst into tears"

- Thirth panel shows Bonnie holding the plate of dumplings

Bonnie: "Yes you can!"

Loop: "wha-? No I'm pretty sure I-"

Bonnie: (interrupts) "You just have to ask for it!"

"To the universe or something"

"Is what the king said!"

- Forth panel:

Bonnie: "If Frin can ask for a country you can ask to eat!"

- Fifth panel:

Loop: -sigh- "Alright"

"I'll try"

- Sixth panel shows Loop somehow having a mouth under the light of their face and eating the dumpling.

- Seventh panel is Loop's surprised reaction.

Second page:

-First panel is both Loop and Bonnie surprised

Loop (thinking): "you can eat."

-Second panel:

Bonnie: "So? How is it?"

Loop (thinking): "you can eat!!! You can taste!!!"

A text pointing at Loop says "trying REALLY hard not to cry"

Thirth panel:

Bonnie: "uh... Loop?"

Loop: "thank you snack leader for this delicious meal"

A text pointing at Loop says "failure"

-Forth panel is Loop and Bonnie sitting at the favor three. Loop is cleaning their tears and Bonnie is sitting next to them about to fall asleep.

HII HELLO, Looping family (but no one is saying it) au again. Yes that's what I'm calling it I'm so creative (<--- awful at names)

This is the first loop in act 4. You know. After the king. Yeah...

So the party decided to put two beds together and sleep everyone in the same place. With Bonnie in the middle. Where no kings couldn grab them again.

Bonnie is sleeping peacefully because they feel safe around the group (also yes, they already had their panic attack earlier but they feel a bit better now)

Here's a close up

And sketch under cut cause I work TO HARD on those legs to not add them.

Also, I have the full eraser for chapter 1 and almost half of chapter 2, now I just have to correct them and translate them. See ya!

Minor spoiler for act 3 onwards (also for the owl house season 2)

My addition to the Ageswap Au hello

Is that one scene from the owl house but is Ageswap Au Bonnie and Siffrin (I didn't know the head housemaiden age in this Au so I assumed she is still an adult)

I got the idea because, you know, Siffrin and Loop don't have parents so 🐊

Hi I did this for ur Au @ocean-arts @tealgoat @startagainaprologue @basilpaste @pixxyofice hii

Ageswap AU be like

(au by @startagainaprologue, @tealgoat, @the-bitter-ocean, @basilpaste and @pixxyofice)

of course i was worried sick!! thank change you're okay!

( a heartfelt reunion between nille and bonnie post-game )

Happy ISAT anniversary!!!

Museum

In stars and Time, All acts spoilers

Watched Infinity Train recently and there was one scene in Book 4 that really inspired me :)

A broken wish

Act 5, alias the best worst act ever

Bonnie and Isabeau are holding onto poor Siffrin, poor fella

✨ISAT ACT 4/5 SPOILERS ✨

“Somethings breaking, rotting”

Oh man, ISAT am I right??

I had a vision

In Stars And Time tarot cards (kinda???)

3 years (/dra) late, but heres part 1 of my @isat-secretsanta-2024 for @crows-sorrows !!!!!!! i absolutely adore post-canon sif exploration <3 (also bonnie is there too bc they Can)

Anyway time to go down the rabbit hole of "oldass art adventures"

Today on Evs' list of "I forgor to post this" is ISAT stuff from a year ago🎉🎉🎉!!! Yippeeeeeeeeeee

This is it.

This is the whole game.

I have NO IDEA where this idea came from but take it I guess…

*throws it at you and runs away*

0.5 picture

+angry cat Sif

Makes my grand return to tumblr with in stars and time <3 heres my autism <3 spoilers??? under the cut??? for two hats??? uh loop stuff proceed at ur own risk i guess???

a distillation of adolescent rage within bonnie

as promised, here's a bit of an analysis of bonnie, specifically of how much their character is defined and fueled by anger, where that anger is coming from, and how much exactly of it is genuine and how much is there just to feel a bit more safe and a bit less confused. because man, bonnie is so well-written, it needs to be talked about more, and this aspect of them is especially handled really well

i also love them deeply, there's that. okay let's go team

to establish the facts: bonnie being angry is really the first thing we learn about them, and what siffrin's first association with them is at the point where we meet the party. it's even in their first memory's description. see? right there.

and i mean, they have a full right to be, don't they? the country is in a crisis. and while they've grown close to the rest of the party, the reason they're traveling with them in the first place is because they had to run away from their town, which they probably don't remember ever leaving beforehand, and leave their sister behind because she got frozen in time.

this is some scary stuff, especially for a kid, whose peace of mind relies on stability and familiarity. any turmoil introduced into even something as small as a daily routine can seriously mess them up, much less a separation from their one trusted guardian and a displacement of such a degree. i shudder to think what their thought process was when they were running from the curse before siffrin spotted them and the party took them in - they must've been so scared. i can't think about that too long or i feel like crying tho let's move on ok

bonnie is obviously mad at the king. they're so angry. well, who wouldn't be? he's the cause of all this. they want vengeance, they want justice, they want to help take him down! and doing only things they're limited to by the adults in the group feels like it's not enough.

this is a bit of a sidenote but this conversation hints at just how anxious bonnie's attachment style is. we know nille ran away with them from home and are given not much detail besides that, if only because bonnie was tiny and doesn't remember much of that, but both the fact that you don't have to remember something for it to shape the way you are and the fact that nille is probably pretty busy keeping both herself and her little sibling alive may be the reasons for bonnie's fear of abandonment and need to be useful

bonnie's entire friendquest stems from them needing to feel like they're contributing more, that's why they ask siffrin to teach them how to fight. and they ask siffrin specifically because they, despite their strained relationship at the moment, hold him in high regard and trust him to say if something is actually off-limits because, in their mind, he doesn't baby them needlessly.

that's rare for a kid, to not be overly coddled.

ok, back on track from the attachment style tangent, rise rise rise where is your rage back on

bonnie is even more mad at the king when they finally are facing him. and he's crying and despairing, and having the gall to act all pathetic. and bonnie can't take that. they have been so brave, keeping it together this entire time, and this guy, the cause of all this despair, dares to act like that? what gives him the right?

kids often default to expressing simpler emotions they can fully process and understand when an unexpected feeling corners them or when their defense system kicks in and deems an emotion too harmful yo fully experience; they round up to the closest emotion they can and go with that. bonnie is, of course, angry, but they're also full of fear about everything that's happening that's getting tuned out for their own self-preservation, and they feel a lot of indignation and confusion about this adult that doesn't even have the decency to have his shit together to the same degree bonnie does. bonnie doesn't understand him or why he did what he did, and it feels unfair that they were staying strong and the king can just fall apart like that. but anger is easier, so it all gets rounded to that.

recognizing the layers of bonnie's emotions and how one is caused by another is key to understanding them as a character. but honestly, the king isn't the strongest example we've got to show this, however - siffrin is a better one.

we're introduced to bonnie with them acting distant towards siffrin. only in act 1 are we able to experience what the natural dynamic between those two has been ever since siffrin lost their eye, and it's genuinely a little heartbreaking. it's a lot of siffrin being awkward and jumpy, unsure how to approach bonnie, and bonnie being huffy and disconnected, not really playing into the conversation.

things are tense and neither of them is equipped to diffuse the situation. it's so, so sad because context clues tell us they used to be close - siffrin was the first one to call bonnie "bonbon" but he doesn't do that anymore, bonnie avoids even just eye contact with him, and the way they're acting is clearly something siffrin believes to be a sign of bonnie decidedly not liking them anymore.

(this "being hated" is a surprise tool that will help us later)

while we don't know why things are the way they are at first, we later learn that it's because siffrin doesn't see getting hurt while protecting bonnie as a big deal. and bonnie is upset that he got really, really seriously hurt to the point of losing an eye and he's just waving it off. there's a few things at hand here that go into bonnie's seemingly simple reaction.

the issue here largely comes from siffrin's avoidance of talking about their internal state. because they waved things off, not wanting to talk about it, bonnie didn't have the chance to talk things through either, and process them healthily. the guilt, fear and sadness stemming from someone you care about getting hurt because they kept you safe all go unaddressed.

additionally, there's a cognitive distortion that kids often suffer from where they think everything happening is their fault, even when they were in no way involved in causing it, may play a part here. because their world is just so small, if kids can't pin the blame on something else (since it may be something they're not aware of or too vague), it doesn't compute, so they immediately place the blame on themselves.

there's of course an additional doom spiral of bonnie acting closed off, siffrin taking it as them hating him, and bonnie taking that as siffrin drifting away, and the cycle perpetuating because no one in the party wants to budge into this. everyone is allergic to communication.

the crux of it is, bonnie isn't really angry at siffrin, not in the way he is at the king. it's just easier for their preteen brain to categorize what they're feeling as anger, as a defense mechanism, and point those emotions outwards instead of keeping them inside. it's easier to lash out than regurgitate those feelings and let them eat away at them. so they act out, and scream, and call siffrin stupid.

and we have one than one example of bonnie lashing out with anger because that's the easiest option. it's certainly easier than figuring out what emotions they're exactly feeling and dealing with them without admitting they're a kid that doesn't understand how to do it alone.

among them is of course the way they act when they overhear the others talking about what to do if anyone dies, and the connected rotten adults event. after that safe room, bonnie is remarkably closed off, and if you go to the poem room, they read the book on funerary rites and then pointedly pretend to not do so when asked what they're doing.

it's an incredibly exemplary interaction, i think. because they're surprised, we get an almost step by step for their thought process, and it goes a bit like this:

i didn't mean for you to see me look at this and i want you to not know about it -> stop talking like you know what i was doing because i don't want you to know about it -> i want you to think it's nothing important so that you're not more interested -> i'll tell you i'm okay because that may make you think you don't need to look -> it's not working, so i'm going to tell you directly to stop looking at what i'm doing, or at me, because, again, i don't want you to know i'm in distress -> i'm feeling a lot of things so i need to expel them in some way, "shut up" -> this is isn't working, i need to deflect and give you something else to focus on

this avoidance and giving over the reins to anger instead of processing anything is something bonnie resorts to a lot when overloaded by a lot of different emotions they can't deal with

in bonnie's mind, talking about it is bad because it's distressing, and scary, and makes them think of awful scenarios they don't want to come true, and not talking about it means not feeling all that, and that's surely better. there's also that defense mechanism at work, the externalizing of negative emotions and pointing them outward instead of letting them hurt the inside. and it kicks in on full throttle when siffrin tries to comfort bonnie.

anyone who's been in an adolescent age in their life can recognize this emotion. wanting someone to just go away, leave you alone, stop talking about something or doing something. to bonnie, if you don't talk about something, it's not real, and siffrin comforting them a. anchors the cause of their state in reality, b. confirms they don't have everything together because they needed comforting in the first place. and that's no good! so they act out. it's like a deimatic behavior, a tactic to scare off something that you would otherwise have no choice but to give in to. they're not unlike a cat hissing and puffing up to seem bigger. you know those spicy kitten videos where they just do firecracker noises at a human hand closing in on them? yeah.

and it works!! to an inordinate degree because the object of it was siffrin who a. is extremely prone to believing people hate him, b. entered a time loop because he cares so much about these people and staying with them. told you that surprise tool would come back. in bonnie's defense, people usually don't rewind time when you do that, and just back off until your emotional state is calm enough that you can talk without feeling like imploding.

it's alright, siffrin just needs enough time to assemble their own thoughts before approaching bonnie again. and when he does, we see how to overcome the obstacle of an adolescent attempting to avoid a conversation concerning unpleasant feelings.

siffrin just gives bonnie space to experience those big feelings safely and explains calmly why something happened in the first place. when they try to avoid a conversation, he just gives them time to think about it instead of giving them any sort of pep-talk, and they talk it out calmly, and make a promise to reassure bonnie that they're both gonna keep each other safe. siffrin genuinely does a remarkable joke here. no one does it better than them nothing awful will ever happen. fans of love and friendship don't think too hard about end of act 3

to drive the point home, we get a bit of an awful reprise of bonnie lashing out as a self-defense tactic in act 5 because they're overwhelmed by just how upset siffrin made them by risking getting hurt on purpose just so they could be stronger. they do the same thing as before, resorting to throwing out hurtful words to scare off the source of all those intersecting negative feelings, and, since they can now, run away.

it needs to be understood that bonnie is not a kid pointlessly angry at nothing in particular and everything around them. their anger is in direct response to too many things happening at once and them having trouble processing all of it, and instead resorting to simplifying their emotions into one very primal one, and expelling it outwards in a form of them lashing out. they're going through an already confusing time of changes you're forced to go through during your adolescence - and a national curse-related crisis is not helping. when given the tools and space to process in an environment they feel is safe, they're not nearly as wrathful.

i guess the tl;dr is this - while they have a bit of a fiery personality and some of their rage is fully justified, bonnie for the most part acts out in anger because it feels like it's keeping them safe and allowing them to not bottle in things that are too confusing to them; it's already a scary world out there for a preteen entering the world of more complex emotions, and being far away from your sister and mid-way through a national crisis is making it even worse.

it might be a bit less noticeable because they spend most of the game upset at siffrin, so we don't see a lot of their sweeter side in one-on-one conversations as much, but honestly, they're such a sweet kid. so cute too, they're extremely endearing. it's no wonder the party is hell-bent on protecting them no matter what.