Memorial - Blog Posts

Today is harder than any day I ever thought I'd bare;

It's even harder cause I'm surrounded by people who do not care.

They may care about me and the pain that runs through,

But they are perfectly incapable of actually missing you.

I feel that you're still out there though it does feel far away;

How am I supposed to accept that you have gone a different way?

I've loved and fought for so long I don't know how to stop,

And it's even fucking harder to finally give up.

I worshipped you, I prayed for you, I fell down to my knees

Hopin' and prayin' for a life we fought to see;

But now you've taken your own life and brought it to an end;

I thought that at the very least I'd find a way to call you friend.

I thought I had accepted that our love just couldn't be,

But what I failed to realize was how strong you were still holding on to me.

I was holding onto hope for us harder than any drug I've had,

Even though I knew that any ending would only turn out bad.

But this was not an end that I'd ever thought I'd see,

Now you're gone and taken every single piece of me.

Made some art of an old friend's Spamton self-insert. Rest in peace Bored Guy.

Made some left-handed doodles because I can't use my dominant hand rn. These turned out pretty good imo

Here are my Three Random Drawings I Wasted My Talent On

Drawing #1: Pixel Leaf Fanart in 2024

Time Spent: 3:01

So about a few months ago, I made this Pixel Leaf fanart based on her new sona's design. I'm honestly really proud of this one, the only problem I have is to draw a hand pointing. TBH, fingers are kinda hard to draw.

But anyways, @pixel-leaf if you are reading this or somehow stumbled upon this post, hopefully you'll enjoy this fanart I made and if you do, I'll safely say thank you for your appreciation 😊👍

Drawing #2: Public Domain Frenzy

Time Spent: 6:54

In case you live under a rock, Mickey Mouse and the cartoon made for him has recently reached public domain on the first day of January in 2024. Which makes it a great idea for Keithan (my OC) to be cast in Steamboat Willy where Doom Ramirez (My other OC) built a boat for him. Needless to say, things went horribly wrong.

However I recently heard that Mickey being on the public domain would also bring out some huge downfalls such as making some money by making crappy horror games, and being copyright claimed by Disney themselves, but hopefully I'll never be copyright claimed by Disney ;)

Drawing #3: Tribute to the Fallen

Time Spent: 10:26

Well, it seems that you made it to the first drawing that has some serious topics. If you are feeling depressed or overwhelmed that these two have passed away, be happy for them for creating one of your childhood favorites.

I personally haven't watched Dragon Ball yet, but I've had one of my friends inside or outside the Internet that are huge fans of Dragon Ball and it is sad to see Akira Toriyama, the creator of Dragon Ball, pass away. So thank you Akira for making one of the most goated anime of all time, and hopefully you'll rest in peace.

It was also sad to see the creator of one of my childhood favorites also pass away in the same month. I haven't heard of Janice but I appreciated her for creating a wonderful childhood for me.

I have no other words to say other than my deepest respect goes to everyone that supports these two people and their family.

Thank you for everything...

A school project, but one I’m quite proud of

Objectification

To be human is to live in all the things we keep around us

A nest full of shiny objects we’ve collected

That make us feel at one with the world

To live and die in these objects

A bit of soul left behind in every knickknack

A coffee mug that says Ethyl, which was painted in Alaska

You found it in a second hand store

And now when you drink coffee each morning you toast

To Ethyl, a stranger

When you die someone else will toast to you

With Ethyl’s mug

Generations of strangers live inside a coffee cup

“It reminds me of how she held on to someone she didn’t even know,

Didn’t want to forget or have her be forgotten”

My favorite mug will hold my soul when I die

And you can have it, toast to me every morning

Or with every evening tea

I want to live on in your coffee dregs

Long after I’ve passed

Maybe life really ends when the living forget us

And all these ceramic elephants, matryoshka dolls, carnival glassware

Will immortalize us as stories solidify

And simplify our existence

What will you live in when you die?

#architecture #memorial #slavin #bratislava #clouds #sunset (na mieste Staré Mesto, Bratislavský, Slovakia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxXb9uzAPlt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1y0qk5ea17fms

Now this is just too cool...guy building JKU as a memorial for the FDNY 343. Nice!

Scary. I found this grave desk and burning candle inside the lamp near forest where I live. I thought it was just fire someone did so I came closer and found this. Photo is a low quality but on desk there is a portrait of a guy with sunglasses and hoodie on head with date of death 2023 with nickname Rocky. Same guy is portrayed on city shopping area. I didn't knew him. Maybe he died here and someone keep his memory.

Happy Memorial Day

Happy Memorial Day

View from Point Venus

in memory of Yin Chong Roger Howan, my father

I’ll be honest. I cried so much making this.

This is the beginning of a memorial piece I intend to get tattooed, probably on my wrist. The feather needs to be thinner, especially at the bottom, as it will be a tail feather of my first bird Winter, who passed many years ago. We got Winter from an elderly woman who was losing the ability to care for her properly. We had two birds previously, but Winter was the first that was all mine.

The paw prints belong to my kitties, both passed last year, and I got both at 6 years old. The orange and white one belongs to Odie, my fat, “no really mom, it’s just fur!” cat. His diabetes went unnoticed until it was too late to save him. I attributed his weight loss and sluggishness to depression, as it was mere months after we had lost his brother Batman, to whom the black paw belongs. He was all black, but for the white star on his chest. He was always sickly, but it took me by surprise when I woke up one morning to find him unmoving and struggling to breathe.

Eckwersheim rail accident memorial

On the northern edge of the Strasbourg Metropolitan Area, the high-speed railway line crosses the Marne-to-Rhine Canal (of which I've said quite a lot recently) and curves to the South to join the trunk line into Strasbourg. It was here, on 14 November 2015, in the months prior to this section opening, that a test train derailed catastrophically, killing 11 and injuring 42.

The immediate cause of the derailment was over-speed: the crew had failed to brake in advance of the curve and headed into it 90 km/h faster than they should have. The reasons for this failure are a point of contention; as far as I have understood, the accident report hasn't managed to clearly identify them as there was no voice recorder in the driver's cab. The accident has been in the news recently as the trial of the driving crew and the companies involved has just taken place, with the verdict due to be returned in October.

I have been travelling on the accident tracks for years, and possibly since the first time I took the TGV to Strasbourg in 2017, I have made a note of this particular curve, recognising the red bridges from those terrible pictures from the news, not out of anxiety, but out of awareness of what had taken place. Knowing that a memorial garden sits there, and with the court case wrapping up, I decided to go out and see it in person.

Quite isolated from outside noise by the two elevated train tracks either side, and with the canal and paths ahead, the atmosphere there is indeed very peaceful. A large plaque recalls the event, while 11 stones are scattered around the site for the deceased.

"En hommage aux victimes et aux personnes profondément touchées par l'accident de la rame d'essais du 14 novembre 2015, à celles et ceux qui nous ont quittés"

A flower more delicate than any other.