Midnight Rambles - Blog Posts

Made this because I my government assigned color was purple and my older sister was pink and to this day we keep unconsciously picking out stuff in these colors

had to wash my hair earlier so shout out the bitches who can do hair and are good at, the bitches who can't do hair and struggle to style it, the ones who are average at it and can only do "basic" hairstyles. yall are valid as fuck I see you

Over analyzing AvA again below the cut

So In the box episode I'm still curious on why the stickmen with the outlines in the small town were so determined to avoid the color gang?

Cause they don't seem to have a genuine reason unless they just prefer to all be anti social but the chances of someone at least answering is still likely.

Unless something about rocket corp makes them quiet and avoidant. I mean they either don't care or cover their face as they walk away. It's either rocket corp is a place that's kinda scary to outsiders or they're just genuinly antisocial.

If it is the first then rocket corp must’ve done other disturbing things in the past and not just the box scene.

It's an interesting thing to think about while waiting for the next AvA ep to come out(End of the year I'm excited :D)

Theories to figure out the world building✨️

And if we ever meet again

I’ll know it’s meant to be

but for now let’s live in this happiness

because we both know it won’t last forever

even though we truly wish it did.

MSI

<Living in the Moment Was Always Our Thing>

I get like really focused on random things and I don't really know why, but here's what's been on my mind for about a week:

The fact that people who sell food products have to be so like specific about every detail of what goes into their food no matter how obvious it is. I'm saying this because there is ONE thing I read that every time I eat from the jar, I just go, "but why tho???"

And I know there's a lot of stupid motherfuckers in this world who caused stupid laws to be put into action, but riddle me this batman:

Say you bought a jar of peanuts.

What is in the jar? What could possibly be in the jar?

Maybe it's peanuts??? Or is that too far-fetched for some people to think???

BECAUSE ON THE JAR OF PEANUTS, YOU ARE LEGALLY OBLIGATED TO DISCLAIM THAT THE PRODUCT CONTAINS PEANUTS AND "MAY CONTAIN TREE NUTS" AND IT HAS BEEN ROTTING IN MY BRAIN SINCE I MADE THIS REALIZATION THAT IT IS ON THERE.

Like I understand, people want to legally cover their asses for every possible situation. And like since you already have to be so specific about what is in your food product since people have to ingest it and could get sick if they eat the wrong thing, so it makes sense to just do it on all foods.

But like it's so stupid to me like picture this:

Someone walks into a nearby Keyfood and finds a lovely jar of peanuts. They look at the allergy label, seeing if there is anything they are allergic to. Finding nothing, they smile to themself. It must be their lucky day!

They pay for the jar and make their way into their humble abode, ready to consume the delectable goods contained in the jar. They open it and take a small, round peanut and plop it into their mouth, feeling the satisfying crunch of eating it.

Suddenly, they feel panic as their throat starts to close up, their face getting puffy. Oh no, is this an allergic reaction? But they were so careful in reading what the jar of peanuts contained through the allergy warning. Could the jar of peanuts have contained the one thing they were allergic to? Could it have had... peanuts?!

LIKE YOUR ACTIVELY GRABBING A JAR OF PEANUTS FOR CONSUMPTION DO YOU REALLY NEED A WARNING THAT STATES THE FACT THAT SAID JAR OF PEANUTS CONTAINS THE NUT KNOWN AS THE PEANUT???

Like in a court of law, I feel like the judge would have to legally side with the plaintiff since it didn't like say on the label that it contains peanuts, but from a logical standpoint I don't think you should be suing the manufacturer for not putting this label on their product.

Instead, I believe YOU SHOULD BE SUING THE EDCUATION SYSTEM THAT CLEARLY FAILED YOU AS YOU HAVE LITTLE TO NO COMPREHSION SKILLS. HELL, I FEEL LIKE THEY TOOK AWAY THESE SKILLS AS MAYBE A TODDLER WOULD UNDERSTAND THAT A JAR OF PEANUTS HAVE PEANUTS IN THEM.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk about what random thing this week has randomly been ingrained into my mind and fully captured my attention for a lot longer than it should have.

WE OUT THE GRIPPY SOCKS JAIL BITCHESSSS

i got psych ward stories to share at some point, anyone that wants to hear will get them

also ill continue yttd as bidoofs at some point to just not rn

I was at stop and shop and i was staring at a can of monster just to read the nutrition facts and my dad decided to get it for me

Ive been staring down this can, it has 160mg and apparently im supposed to have like less than 100 mg per day

Whenever i have caffeine its always a gamble between "will i stay up for a very, very long time or will i pass out in like 5 mins?"

Is caffeine supposed to make you tired bc ive had a couple cups of coffee and i usually feel so tired after

Anyways im off to chug this thing, wish me luck

Is it normal to just like "fake preform(?)" while listening to music?

Like ill blast inabakumori (specifically the loudest ones or floating moonlight city) at 3am and just jump around my room like im preforming at a miku expo

Or ill put on mitski and just walk around while being overly dramatic while whisper-screaming "MOM, WILL YOU WASH MY BACK THIS ONCE?"

Ive asked my qpps about this and apparently they do it a lot too but they usually just pretend like they are playing an instrument

I grab a rainbow slug (he is mr. slug i love him and my zucchinis sm bc one of them got me him) and us it as a mic while i just go absolutely beserk at ungodly hours jumping, "dancing," and singing/screaming like "I DONT KNOW WHERE THE THOUGHTS ARE COMING FROM, PULL MY STRINGS AND SWALLOW ICHOR"

My father is a strange being. So a couple weeks ago he sent me to keyfood because he wanted to make curry when he got home. I was given a fairly big bag and so i expected to go in and get a bunch of stuff.

He then told me to buy a singular potato.

Just one potato, nothing else

A bag full of potatoes cost like no more than 5 dollars, probably a lot less, so i just went to get like a 10 so i could get this man his one potato

And he gave me a 20 "incase 10 was not enough"

I get inflation is a thing but TWENTY DOLLARS for a SINGULAR POTATO???

I walked up to the cashier looking terrified with a 20 dollar bill to buy one potato, you could see pure confusion on her face.

We also had potatoes at home so this was completely unnecessary.

Money on My Mind

I just went shopping on my way home from being a Home Chef for a friend of mine becasue I wanted to make Stuffed shells for dinner after I made her manicotti. Of course I ended up buying a whole lot more, but honestly I can't just run into the store and grab one item.😅

So I grab a cart and start in the fruit like most people do. Almost out of garlic so I grabbed a big jar cause it goes for a long time. Grabbed some Snap Dragon Apples and Raspberry oranges. Now those all sound boujie but all the apples were $3.99 a bag and my oranges were cheaper than navel ones!😲

So then I head to the areas where I am supposed to be going aka the pasta. I grab Italian bread to make garlic bread and found pie and bagels discounted so scooped those up. I even found a decent size pork roast on discount for tomorrow's dinner! Then I hit the pasta aisle.😄

I found sauce for a crazy sale price and stood in the pasta aisle for like 15 minutes comparing sale prices. I tried to make it down the cookie aisle safely, but I ended up seeing store brand butter cookies so snatch.😆

Next came eggs but I was not worried cause i cased them earlier in the week I knew that I could get 24 for $8.25 which is a steal nowadays. Got a big bag of meatballs that will last a while too. Finally I hit the dairy and to my lovely shock I found butter on sale! Let me tell you even on the holidays I could not find butter on sale like this! I will be going back later this week to grab more cause butter is so expensive right now!😖

Finally grabbed all the cheeses I needed for the shells and found cream cheese on a fantastic sale. Grabbed my daughter's Greek yogurt and then on my way to the register I remembered a vid I watched about olive oil being scarce in the coming months so I decided to check that out and after another 15 min of price comparing I chose one and that was the most expensive thing I bought at $14.99 but it will last me months.🧐

When all is said and done I spent $141.35 and it filled four bags, which is not many, but everything I bought except for the cookies was all healthy and unprocessed or will last months. I think I did damn good! Then I spent $2.89 on a bottle of blackberry Dr. Pepper and made mac and cheese cause it was too late to cook the shells cause I took two hours to shop.😂

No for serious, right now as i am writing this I am roasting the veggies in my fridge so they don't go bad and I can freeze them. I really am trying not to let anything go bad in my fridge anymore cause that was a bad habit we had and it wastes soooo much money. So yeah, I think I did really good and the two most expensive things i bought were the garlic and the olive oil. The pantry is full and we will be too for a few months!🥰

Mata ne Mina!🤗

Feeling Like Something is Missing

Watching You Tube vids and thinking about either eating something or going to bed is a normal thing for me every night, but tonight I feel like something is missing and I can't figure out what it is. 🤔

I mean I just finished a rough work night where I really went too far and I am sure my back and knee will be making me pay for it when I am trying to sleep but i felt fulfilled so that counts for something. Still I feel like something is missing.😖

Tomorrow I can't go to my physical therapy appointment cause my car is getting worked on but at least I have the day off. I am hoping that my body pain is not too much that I can't continue my reorganizing of my kitchen and hopefully my rolling kitchen counter gets put together in the next few days cause that will be really helpful! Al least I got the laundry done yesterday which is a bonus!😉

I don't know, maybe I'm worried about nothing and that's what is missing. Maybe I am not used to thing being okay and less worrisome than they usually are. Maybe that's what's missing. That dread that I usually feel that something is going to go wrong and catch me off guard.😵

Eh, I guess I'll eat something and then sleep on it. Night all.😴

Thinking About Making A Tik-Tok

Those are four words, no I am not counting the A fuck it, that I never thought i would ever say. I'm said it before I am not a fan of it at all, but watching the compilations that I have seen on the You Tube channels lately I am feeling a kinship that I never felt before. Interestingly my daughter was not surprised or against it. She always said that if you don't like what you are seeing on a platform, create it. I love how she gets me so much.🥰

That being said I am a horrible procrastinator so I have to over come that first. Oh and if anyone wonders it's not about using it as a side hustle. Honestly I don't even think I could make a nickel posting but just having an outlet to talk about things that I want to that I don't see people talking about and being fairly down to earth in my midnight ramblings I think some might find it interesting and maybe helpful?🤔

My second biggest obstacle would be me or rather my face. Full transparency...I hate myself. Have for the past 41 years of my life and can't see it changing much in the near future. This means if I don't want to see my face, why would I want someone else to. This means I have to figure out what to post for a background as I talk cause I don't want to be like those all talking posts while you watch someone else doing things. That's just weird to me.😵

I guess that's it really. I mean i found a vid on how to get started the right way in 2025 so I will know all the button to unclick and I even have something that would let me take vids so yeah...I guess the only thing holding me back is...facing the fact that no one will care outside of me about anything and that it is a a delusion of mine and I should just...😶

Well anyway that's it for tonight I guess. Gonna try and get actual sleep tonight cause I want to get some stuff done tomorrow in house as my fight towards organized clutter continues in 2025. Oyasuminasai Mina.😴

Lost Weekend

So the past two days have been super rough for me. Because of my stress and anxiety i did not sleep Thursday night into Friday morning and had to cancel my aqua therapy that morning. Then I tried to fall asleep again and my oldest son's cat kept waking me up so I tossed him out. Then my alarm for 1025 went off that i forgot about. After that just little things kept interrupting me and I think I finally passed out at like noonish and woke up to my 3pm/1500 alarm to pick up my daughter at school. 😵

My D&D friend asked me if I would help her unpack her new place so I decided it was a good excuse to stop sleeping so I went and was paid with Italian food for dinner. After that I watched some anime that she needed to catch up on that I already watched and then pretty much passed out when I got home.

Saturday I went to work in the AM and pushed myself farther than I should have with my body pain and ended up in bad shape that I slept till like 9pm/2100 and calling in to work cause i could barely move. Now this morning I woke up to my second son giving me a breakfast sandwich which was delicious but put me to sleep again and when I finally got up it was 5pm/1700.

Spent since then catching up on all the anime that I missed so I can do my recaps and hopefully I can get real sleep tonight so that I don't miss physical therapy tomorrow.

What upsets me the most is I wasted a normal day off from sleeping and then an extra day off from work and got nothing done in the house and it makes me feel lazy and more depressed cause who else is gonna do it but me when the kids are at school/work?

So tired. I did not sleep last night cause I was stressed and anxious. Finally passed out at 0930 but kept being woken up randomly here and there. Got up at 3 finally to pick my kid up from school. Helped a friend move in and was paid in food and just got home an hour ago.

Work tomorrow so passing out now. Will play anime catch up tomorrow...um I mean today.

I Don't Want to Go to Work Tomorrow

Watching random recipes on youtube as I try and decide if I want to go to work tomorrow. It is going to snow about 2 in. here and the schools are already closed but I still have work cause crazy people want bagels and soup in a damn snow storm apparently.🙄

I don't want to go but I already didn't go in yesterday cause I was so tired. Yeah full grown adults have those kind of days too. Plus my son's cat was making it hard to leave the bed so I blame him too.😅

Either way, it is no fun driving in the snow honestly and I know that we will hardly have any guests plus everyone else is going to call in so why should I be the only adult...over the age of 30 that shows up and get stuck there doing the work of 5 people or being made to clean something that no one has cleaned in months just cause I am there. Like 14 years at this place and i am still treated like the kids, no offense to anyone specific, that just started or have been there like a year. I've been there longer than all my managers for fuck sake!😒

Anyway so yeah, I really can't afford it especially since I don't know what is going on with my tax return or my daughter's survivor benefits thanks to Muskhole getting a hold of our personal info illegally, but I am just tired of being the grown up when my body feels more like a damn senior. I identify with Sophie so much. No wonder it's my fav Ghibli movie.😩

Rant over i guess and i'll go back to watching vids that make me smile and I guess i'll let you know if I decide to go in or not tomorrow.😞

uhh oghhv this is so much responsibility for my little rat brains.

Mjgshshshshs

Synistinshieah (sin-ist-ish-e-yah)

No that's not a keyboard smash I just like to ignore pronunciation rules constantly

Uh uhhhh uhsgsgsggs

*spontaneously combusts*

@mxnster-energylover @lyinginthegr4ve @20ratsinahumansuit mutuals I summon thee to help me name this character

I really like her