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what in the actual fuck.
i thought i had met the one. no, for real this time. i say that every time i meet a guy. i swear.
my chart
his
he was chubby, just my type, and we did the same drugs. grew up in the same part of town. he had a house and a job. bingo.
i ask if he knows his moon sign, he responds that he doesn’t know what it’s currently in. i had to ask him to repeat himself because of how disbelief i was in. i coulda melted there on the floor.
later he shows me his printed out natal chart and i examine it on his bed.
unfortunately i do our synastry chart and he only had one key aspect. most of my exes usually have more than one. first red flag, i ignore.
keep telling myself maybe he only has one because he’s the one key for me. even though the key aspect was a bad one.
he’s a cancer sun like me. my lilith is also in cancer and supposedly that means you attract the darker aspects of that sign. that would line up. his moon is in gemini, mine is in virgo. kinda at odds there. he constantly wanted to argue. like to the point where it didn’t make sense. like pulling arguments out of thin air and kept running out of ideas.
all his personal planets are in cancer. mine are in gemini. his moon is in libra 7th house, my uranus is in 7th house. i have a tattoo of uranus glyph on my ring finger because it’s my favorite planet for what it represents in astrology. supposedly moon in 7th makes needy for like constant social interaction and having people around. also adds up. he has a lot of friends, and he’d use that to hurt me.
he had pluto in 11th house. i have mars, mercury, and venus there. i really feel like he livened me up. helped me see a light and grow comfortable in my skin and environment. pluto is power and i definitely felt empowered.
my sun is in 12th house, his was in 8th. compatible houses. we talked about spirits and the occult. he told me he had seen a demon one time. it made me fall for him harder. i have a vacant 8th house so it really piqued my interest. i thought it was cute, sexy. an 8th house sun.
he had outer planets in the 12th house, and a bunch in his 1st and 2nd. i have a vacant 1st house. not my favorite house to be honest. could explain why he’s such a dick and ok with hurting others. i feel like first house is a self centered house.
2nd house, i have my moon there. another placement that makes sense. i thought i could make a home with him. i loved his home. i wanted to learn everything about him and spend years with him. i looked at him and saw a husband.
but it got so sour so fast. he wouldn’t let up. it makes me think he was sabotaging it, us. for reasons unknown. maybe he’s just a bpd narcissist and there’s no sense to make. maybe it’s cuz his ex died and his mother is also deceased. i have no clue. maybe it’s just because he’s a big ol bottom.
but i really thought he was the one. i hate that so much of his chart made sense, but i’ve felt like this before about someone. it really hurts having to constantly let go.
we also had north node and chiron conjunct. i thought that was interesting because not a lot of people have that placement ? or maybe they do ? but his were located in gemini in the 7th house. mine are located in libra in the 3rd house. isn’t that so ironic? it’s like it’s mirrored.
he was also born in 1984 which was so sexy to me because george orwell. but he is kinda small minded and i feel diminished my shine in some ways. im just so upset. this doesn’t make any sense to me.
if you’ve read this and have any observations or insight, i’d love to hear it.
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ASTRO OBERVAciones
merc in gemini gives someone wit.
merc in 11th can indicate being good in foreign languages
cancers have a little walk they do. like they kinda scuffle, move slow. cancers give themselves away to me by their walk.
cancers also have a distinct mouth. it’s like their teeth and how protrudes out a little.
scorpio operates on an intense vibration. other signs will recognize the tension and may take offense. but that’s not always the intention. it makes one better tolerate the bullshit.
aries will say what everyone is thinking. even if it’s not polite. but it’s just pure expression, innocent almost.
gemini will say something just to make you mad. but will say something teasingly to show you’re above it.
leos can be surprisingly cold.
sagittarius to me has a noble spirit. esteem, honor and reputation. adventurous, exploration. but also want to have a good time and is not afraid to dive into the party.
sagittarius features are long, tall cheeks.
the most recognizable part of a sagittarius is their jovial and grandiose attitude towards things. it’s contagious. famous.
many presidents have had sun in 10th house.
stelliums run in the family / people who are close to you.
mars might give more to physical attributes than we’ve been lead to believe o.0
houses 1-6 are more small town / rural farm
houses 7-12 are more big city cosmopolitan
libra brings the divine to earth
virgo is the seeds that are sewn
the body we carry
sun in 12th feels like a repellent. like an energetic barrier is between you and how you relate to others. imposed space. lone wolf. like when you put the same sides of a magnet together, but with other ppl.
STAND YOUR GROUND
EVEN IF YOU shake & tremble
nimble nimble
jack be nimble
OH MY GOD
DO I HAVE
A PIMPLE
omg my virgo moon makes me so judgmental by default …. i will judge people for the most arbitrary things (usually their personality, not physical features)
but then my cancer sun 12th house is like so forgiving and compassionate….. truly i am such a humanist and will forgive anyone at the drop of a hat and always try to see the good in people.
but my moon square pluto // mars opp pluto is like… if you piss me off I Will End You
my natal chart x
命盘 means natal chart in mandarin 🤪
my natal chart [will expand on this later.]
Sun in Cancer in Twelfth House
Oh boy. Where do I start with the twelfth house. As if being a cancer wasn’t hard enough!
Moon in Virgo in Second House
Moon in second house, that placement I actually quite fancy. Virgo though? Talk about nervous wreck! Very insecure growing up, for various reasons, and overly privy to detail that I’m still realizing not everyone else is like.
Mercury in Gemini in Eleventh House
Yes I will talk your head off. And yes I will look damn good while I do. Did someone say secular humanism?
Venus in Gemini in Eleventh House
I have three boyfriends at any given time. We need to have a mental connection before anything else is guaranteed. Take me to a gala, a fancy restaurant. Let’s drink wine and lavish in ourselves all night.
Mars in Gemini in Eleventh House
If I like you, I will insult you. If you can’t handle that, then **** ***. My body is small and thin. Lots of nervous energy. I think all the eleventh house energy gives me an aquarian persona, paired with my aquarius draconic moon. which is supposedly what your soul really is. but is our soul really bound by the paradigms of this universe? i dunt think so.