Self Development - Blog Posts

anyone have tips or advice for starting out with tiktok content creation? I think it would be fun and a nice little hobby, but I have no clue where to start. What kind of items would be good to start with, and how do I get the courage to start?

thanks in advance, lovelies 🩷

Where Have I Been?

hello lovelies. so, I started the challenege, did one day, and all of a sudden I feel off the face of the earth. I fell into a bit of a depression, and while I've managed to pull myself out, life has been busy busy busy! This is probably the 2nd busiest week of the year (the 1st will be in August, and you'll find out why). Here's an update on life:

I fly to Colorado on the 16th, so....under 5 days now. I haven't packed or anything yet, but I plan on doing that either tomorrow or Thursday. And I have to clean and prepack for when I return because....

I signed a new lease for a new place to live! I'll have roommates who I haven't met yet (I'm taking over someone lease, actually), but my lease starts August 18th. I return from Colorado on the 14th of August, so....I'm going to be very busy once I return.

I decided to call it quits on getting a 2nd job. It's going to mess up the schedule with my first job, and it would only make me 200$ more a month, which I'm not worried about missing our on since I'll still sell stuff on depop once I return from Colorado and I'm going full time at my current job.

I've gone out to lunch with my dad a few times as well, it's been really nice hanging out with him and spending time with my dad. I lucked out in the dad department and spending time with him is one of my favorite things!

I've been debating going to San Fransisco in October for an XG concert, but I don't know if I'll have the money or ability to anymore. (thank you new apartment and all those fees and expenses!)

my anxiety has been terrible. I haven't changed anything about what I do, but I did squish a lot of anxiety inducing things into the span of two weeks, which....my bad on that. Now I know, don't do that to myself.

I bought new makeup! The juvias place bronzer, charlotte tillbury setting spray, nyx eyebrow stuff, and blush, ughhh I love buying new makeup, I just wish it didn't cost money!

I've gotten better at doing my makeup! I've had people not even notice I'm wearing it because it looks natural despite being like, a full face! Thank you perfect color matches on my skin tint, foundation, and concealors!

I went to two movies with a friend. We saw the new Strangers: Chapter One and the Planet of the Apes movie. Both were definitely good, in my opinion.

I now have to plan with my boyfriend for when he needs to come down here and get his stuff and work out changing the utilities to our roommates name since I'm leaving. I don't feel like it should be my job to coordinate that, but oh well. I guess it's too hard for him and his best friend (my roommate) to call each other for once?? Ugh, men get on my nerves sometimes.

I need to ask my dad and a friend to help me move upon my return, which also means I won't be able to work that weekend, which kind of sucks.

I need to declutter my room and start throwing away things I don't want or need anymore this week to make it easier on myself when I return from Colorado but hahaha I procrastinate a lot.

I'm stressed about paying rent. I'll have to pay rent for here and rent/fees for the new place before august and then September's rent for the new place, and my new rent is about double what I pay now. so yayy, adulting and finances. I don't feel qualified to be an adult, but here I am, age 21, an adult.

That's about it for now! Lots of stress, lots of anxiety, lots of stuff happening super close together. But that's life, I guess. Forgive me for my absence from my blogs. I also stopped studying spanish for now, and my routines are non-existent. Colorado will change that, tho, for sure. I do plan on updating a little more frequently once things settle down when I'm in Colorado. but for now, it'll be kinda here and there with my posting.

thank you for all the patience and kindness, lovelies. til next time 🩷

which kpop groups are your favourites?

it fluctuates depending on my mood and the songs themselves but my consistent favorites have been:

BTS

Stray Kids

Twice

(G)I-DLE

IVE

Itzy

aespa

and currently I've been really enjoying

NewJeans

ILL'IT

Ateez

Babymonster

XG

Kiss of Life

there's a handful of favorite songs from Kpop groups/soloists that, while I wouldn't say the artist or group is my specific favorites, I love the songs. Like I really like, Oh! and Gee from Girls Generation, Bite me by Enhyphen, Super by Seventeen, Pink Venom and Shut Down by Blackpink, Blush by WOOAH, Knock by Lee Chae Yeon, Giddy by Kep1er, Tell Me by Fifty Fifty, Tell me by Wonder Girls, etc. I've been vibing with the summer sounding songs (hence NewJeans and ILL'IT)

Day 2: 20 Day Challenge

Thursday was such a good day, and I don't know if Friday will be as well, but we shall see! I had a mini stress crying episode on Thursday due to some work/school stuff. But I got over it really quick and had a good day!

☀️ Morning Routine Non Negotiables

low impact youtube workout ✅️ (21min Move with Nicole Pilates video)

morning journaling routine ✅️

morning hygiene ✅️

⛅️ Daily Non Negotiables

study Spanish 10minutes minimum ✅️ (19min of study on Busuu)

read 10 pages of a book ✅️ (15pgs of Mindset by Carol Dweck)

get 3k to 5k steps ✅️ (3,543 steps)

⭐️ Night Routine Non Negotiables

night time guided journal ✅️

night time hygiene ✅️

set up for next day ✅️ (picked out workouts for Friday, but went to bed later then I wanted)

🌈 Rules

woke up at 5am but went to sleep at 11pm

drank ~65oz of water (I'm getting better!)

had 3 cups of coffee, the last one at 2pm (was stressed, wanted caffiene. will not do that today)

have no idea what my screen time was but it had to have been high, I was on screens a lot. and a lot if it was tiktok.

Thursday was a good day! Here's to finding balance and being productive <3

💕 Song of The Day: IVE - Heya

til next time lovelies 🩷

are you really sensitive to caffeine? i can have an espresso at 11 pm and be asleep by midnight

I take a medication for my health that if I don't take it, 2 cups of coffee sends my anxiety spiraling. If I do take it, I can have 4 cups up until 7pm and still be asleep by 9/10pm. I'm not super sensitive to caffiene by any means, but because I have anxiety, I have my limits with how much I consume.

Day 1 - 20 Day Challenge

so I had to push the start date of the challenge to Wednesday the 29th. I was sick as of Monday and Tuesday, and even on Wednesday night, I got really ill, which I'm still not sure of what caused it, but it was not a good time. There's a couple things I didn't do, but I'd say I'm off to a good start!

☀️ Morning Non Negotiables

low impact youtube workout ❌️

morning journaling routine ✅️

morning hygiene ✅️

⛅️ Daily Non Negotiables

study Spanish 10+ minutes ✅️ (12min)

read 10 pages of a self help book ✅️ (10pgs)

walked 3k to 5k steps ❌️ (2,504steps)

⭐️ Night Routine Non Negotiables

night time hygiene ✅️

night time journaling ✅️

set up for next day ✅️

🌈 Rules

did not wake up at my normal time, accidentally slept in til 8am but was asleep by 1030pm

only had 2 cups of coffee, both before noon. this was hard to do, because I'm so used to having coffee around 3pm, and having 4 cups in a day

drank ~50oz of water if I had to guesstimate. need to do better about that

I didn't get in as many steps as I wanted. it's too hot to go outside, I wasn't feeling well near the end of the day and and I also woke up at 8 am when my goal was 5am, so I ended up skipping the workout. I'm not sure if I would count those as valid reasons or excuses, but those are what happened. I told myself I was going to be honest with this challenge. But it was still a pretty good start!

🎧 Song of the Day: Woke Up - XG

til next time lovelies 🩷

My 20 day challenege officialy starts today, Wednesday May 28th. I was sick for most of Tuesday, sadly. And I am going to be changing the "take a walk outside" because it's going to be over 100 degrees Fahrenheit all week where I live which is not something I want to be outside in. so my goal is to get between 3k and 5k steps a day from staying inside! I will update the original post as well!

excited to update tonight <3

20-Day Challenge 🎀

I have been in the BIGGEST slump lately. My anxiety had been the highest I've seen it in a while. My eyes are starting to twitch from high cortisol levels again, and I've found it so hard to regulate my stress, anxiety, emotions and just being able to do things is so hard right now. So, here's a challenge for myself that won't be too difficult but will hopefully push me to do things. It is only 20 days because I am traveling to Colorado after that point and will have to adjust my routines and dailies for the 8 weeks I'm in Colorado.

☀️ Morning Routine Non Negotiables

low impact youtube workout (pilates/yoga/stretching)

morning journaling

morning hygiene (skincare/deoderant/brush teeth/brush hair)

⛅️ Daily Non Negotiables

study Spanish for at minimum 10 minutes

read some form of a self-help or productivity book for a minimum of 10 pages

take a walk (either outside or walk around the house,3k to 5k steps minimum daily)

⭐️ Night Routine Non Negotiables

night time guided journal + daily journal (minimum one sentence about my day)

night time hygiene (shower/brush teeth/skincare)

set myself up for the next day

🌈 "Rules"

need to post an update for every day for accountability. if I do not do something I've listed, I need to have a genuine reason why (sick, migraine, unknown change of plans, weather, bodily pain or injury, etc) and must explain the reason or admit to my excuses.

consistent wake up and sleep time. wake up between 5/530am, and be asleep no later then 10/1030pm.

no more than 2 cups of a coffee a day

no coffee after 1pm

minimum 80oz of water

try to minimize screen time on social media

be honest!!! lying about this helps no one, and only keeps me unproductive and unmotivated. if I'm going to do this, I'm going to do it.

Here's to giving myself an extra kick in the rear yo stay productive and keep myself motivated and disciplined as best as possible. It's the least I can do for myself. starts today/tomorrow (may 27th or 28th)!

please keep me accountable lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 22, 2024 🎀

Wednesday was such a long day, a day for no reason at all. It was a good day, tho I ended the night all moody. But it was a good day!

🩷 What I Accomplished

24 Minutes of Leg/Thigh Pilates

studied Spanish for 25 minutes

morning journaled

did my morning skincare

took a nap before worked

worked a ~6 hour shift

did my morning routine

💞 Good Things That Happened

got to hang out with my work friend for a bit

made plans to go shopping with that work friend next week

got to talk with my dad a little bit

did really good at work despite walking in and being told I had one hour to prep my station for the 400+ people we had coming in that night

started studying Spanish again!!

💗 Stuff For Thursday

study spanish

do my morning routine

read

take a nap

go to my psych doctor and therapy appointments

go to an early dinner with my dad after my appointments

order some groceries + things I need for the next few weeks

send my friend my cashapp info

video call with my boyfriend tonight

💕 Song of the Day: BTS - IDOL

I have loved this song since I was like, 16 or 17? and I'm 21 now, and this is still a favorite of mine.

Dang, I was not as productive yesterday as I had thought. And there's not really much to do today either. Crazy! but I always enjoy the more mellow days, that's for sure! and I'm so excited to spend time with my dad today, I haven't gone out to eat with him in a while.

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 21, 2024 🎀

Tuesday started out good but by noon it went downhill so so fast. I struggled so hard with some mental and physical health issues, tons of anxiety, and basically stayed in bed for the entire afternoon/evening. But I still got some stuff done in the morning, so here's a mini update on that stuff.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

took an hour walk outside

walked over 8.4k steps for the whole day

attempted a morning pilates core workput video (twas not the easiest despite being labeled beginner)

morning journal

practiced makeup despite not owning setting spray or may eye brow products and overall missing some things that would've been helpful (need new concelaor for sure)

drank over 65oz of water

talked with my boyfriend

set up a dinner with my dad for Thursday instead of brunch on Friday <3 so excited, I love my dad

💞 Good Things That Happened

got the day off work

took a nice nap

had a comforting, cool shower

began watching Gilmore girls (3 episodes in and I already love it)

ordered pasta sauce for Wednesday

looked at possible nail designs if I do get my nails done

💗 Stuff For Wednesday

morning routine!!

morning workout + skincare (didn't realize my face is slightly sunburnt more then I thought, so that's fun to deal with....not)

work a ~5 hour shift (I'm actually scheduled today)

read some more

study Spanish (I seriously need to get back to this I have an italki lesson in a week!!!)

video call with my boyfriend tonight

decide if my friend and I are going to get our nails done

make list of things to buy with paycheck for Colorado trip

make small grocery list

perhaps drop shoes I sold off at the post office to ship to buyer

I had a rough day. I'm not going to tall about why or what happened, but I seriously am so thankful for the people around me that support me and encourage me, even at my low moments. my dad and my boyfriend are definitely my biggest supports and I love them both so so much. I am so grateful for everything I have, and for the ability to have good days even after having bad ones.

💕 Song of the Day: (G)I-DLE - Queencard

perfect song for summer, feel good girly vibes, one of my all-time favorites <3

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 20, 2024 🎀

omg it'd almost the end of May, what the heck? I'm so excited, I leave to Colorado for my 8 weeks of work very soon and I can't wait! it's going to be such a cool experience being in a new place for a while!

Monday was a good day. My dad and my boyfriend both think I overdid it on the physical exertion a bit, and I agree. I took a long walk, outside, in 95 degree heat, with no sunscreen. Which is why they said I overdid it because my chest and shoulders are sooooo sunburnt. But Monday was amazing! Started off strong, ended not as strong but still good!

🩷 What I Accomplished:

~13k+ steps for the day

took an hour and a half long walk outside(it was amazing, I loved it, I stayed hydrated ans soaked up all the sunlight and fresh air)

completed a 30 min beginner pilates workout from Move with Nicole

did my morning journaling and gratitude

wrote down a positive quote of the day and read through my journal where I wrote down some things that I want to read daily

read and "annotated" 14 pages of Atomic Habits

took a 20 minute power nap

worked a ~6.5 hour shift

drank at least ~80oz of water (that's pretty good given I used to drink like 20oz a day and wonder why I never felt good)

took my two medications + vitamin D supplement

took a cool shower and washed my hair at the end of the day

went to sleep early!

💞 Good Things That Happened

my friend and a supervisor im close with complimented my appearance in a way that gave me a confidence/motivational boost

my other friend and I decided we're probably getting our nails done together next week

that same friend ^ and I are going to go shopping next week as well

my work is going to schedule me where I can still go to brunch with my dad on Friday!

my man starts his first day of work on Tuesday (I'm so excited for him! It's gonna suck not being able to text him all day, but I'm so proud of him for getting this job and all the progress he's made)

got complimented on how efficient I was at work by the night shift supervisor

ate goods that made me happy without feeling guilty or anxiety about it

💔 What Could've Gone Better

I over ate a bit at night after work and felt kind of bloated and sick when I went to bed. it's okay tho, things happen, and Tuesday is a new day <3

super sunburnt!!!! my chest and shoulders are bright, bright red! and I'm a naturally pretty tan person, so seeing my skin that red, yep, I'm definitely super burnt! need to wear sunscreen and protective clothes when I take a shorter walk on tuesday

I definitely overdid it on that walk. got too overzealous and pushed myself a lot. my legs were hurting so bad by the end of the day and that's not good. as much as I enjoyed the walk, I need to be so much more kinder to and thoughtful of my body. it does a lot for me, and I need to treat it right <3

💗 Stuff For Tuesday

take a shorter walk outside in the morning

read more of Atomic Habits (and annotate)

begin studying Spanish some more (fell off the habit but I have a lesson next Tuesday the 28th, so I need to be prepared!)

do some gentle morning and night skincare (my face is a little red from yesterday but not too bad since I wore a hat during my walk)

do my morning beginner pilates and gratitude journaling (I've already done these as of right now, but I struggled with the so-called "beginner" pilates video from IsaWelly. practice makes perfect, tho so I've got to keep consistent!)

book nail appointments with my friend for next week (hopefully the nail tech/nail salon I go to has availability for her and I to go together! I also need to pick the design i want!)

budget for this upcoming paycheck and what I need to save vs what I'm going to spend (and need to buy)

work a ~5 hour shift

talk to my man over video call at the end of the day to see how work/training went for him (it's his first day of work, but it's a hands on training kind of day for him as well)

💕 Song of The Day: aespa - Supernova

what an absolutely amazing song omg. aespa literally never misses with their music. I almost put Spicy, but I've been obsessed with Supernove since it dropped. I love it so much <3

That's all for Monday, like I said, it was a beautiful start to the week for me! And here's to Tuesday being a good day as well <3 I hope everyone here has a wonderful beginning of their week!

til next time lovelies 🩷

I haven’t been consistent with my daily updates, I apologize! I just feel like I haven’t done enough worth posting anything. I do have some other types of posts that I want to make, but as of tomorrow I will have more daily check ins!

thank you lovelies 🩷

Hi, I had a maybe silly question, I’m a guy, but I find the that girl/clean girl aesthetic very appealing, as I struggle with executive functioning and self care as I have ADHD and autism. Unfortunately, most subcultures geared towards men that focus on similar things to these goals also have a misogynistic edge to them. I was wondering if you knew if there was similar subculture or hashtag that I would be welcome in? Is there a clean boy/that boy or gender neutral aesthetic? I’m a bit worried about intruding on a woman-centered space since so many other spaces cater to men.

hi there!

I personally don’t know of any hashtag or subculture that caters to the “that boy/clean boy” aesthetic, but I am hoping anyone who’s sees this can maybe reblog or comment and help us find something like that for you! i will say, there is no harm in identifying with or borrowing from the that girl/clean girl aesthetic if you find ways to incorporate it into your life! I believe the values of these aesthetics are useful for anyone regardless of gender! i do understand wanting to find that community that you can mesh with that has the same aesthetic and values, tho.

if anyone knows of a hashtag or somewhere he can find his space in the that boy, clean boy aesthetic, please comment! If you don’t know of anything, please reblog so we can find that community for him!

Daily Check-in: May 14, 2024 🎀

Tuesday was a slow day turned long day. I was supposed to go into work from 10 to 2 and then they asked me to stay for the night shift so I needed up working 10 to 7:30, with an hour break. So my 4 hour shift turned into an 8.5 hour shift. I was so tired when I got home last night that I showered, did skincare, and fell asleep.

🩷 What I Accomplished

completed a 7 min abs workout video, an 8 min ans and arms video (did not like it), and half of a 5 min abs video. so about 17 minutes of a workout overall.

read and annotated like, 3 or 4 pages of Atmoic Habits

had a really yummy "snack box" breakfast (it was 41 grams of protein and uggghh so yummy)

did my morning journal and morning skincare

walked over 11k steps (I didn't check the exact number but my watch notified me)

worked an ~8.5 hour shift

did my full night skincare routine

💞 Good Things That Happened

checked my final grades and I passed my classes with all A's! This is the first spring semester I've ever done that!

my GPA also went up a little bit so that's exciting!

I tried some of the potatoes they were serving at my work in the evening, and they were so delicious

my dad told me he was so proud of me for how hard I worked and my grades this last semester, I could've cried

💗 Stuff For Wednesday

study Spanish!!! I have an italki lesson on Tuesday the 21st at 9am so I need to get on my study grind!!

read and annotate Atomic Habits a little bit

wash my comforter and other blanket

wash my laundry and put away

finally cook my meal prep dinner (chicken, mashed potatoes, and brocooli!)

perhaps attempt to bleach/dye my hair again (I tried on Sunday and the bleach didn't do much so I need to do it again, I'm trying to dye parts of my hair pink at the moment)

do my morning + night skincare

I woke up sore today (wednesday), which I think is partially due to the 8 min abs and arm workout that I did not enjoy. Like it's a more painful kind of sore, so yeah, taking that video out of my rotation.

💕 Song of The Day: NewJeans - Super Shy

I love summer time kpop music. that super girly, feminine summertime bops are everything!! I should make a summer vibes playlist omg.

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 13, 2024 🎀

Monday was officially the first day of my summer and it was a good day despite how emotional I was (thank you birth control shot). I got a good amount of stuff done and I just overall feel really good about Monday.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

10 Min Ballet/Pilates Legs Workout by Move With Nicole (it burned so good, I loved that one)

morning journal + morning skincare

finished Good Vibes Good Life (definitely a good read, i liked what it talked about a lot)

did a small load of laundry

went to a doctor's appointment (got my birth control shot, did lab work, and got an ekg done)

worked a ~4.5 hour shift at my job (they called me in and it was super chill)

filled out my unemployment certification

💞 Good Things That Happened:

got to hang out with my dad

dad and I got burger king for lunch <3

talked to my doctor about some healthy habits to adopt to help a mild medical issue we discovered and got told some good stuff

got a ride home from my favorite supervisor

discovered a new youtuber to watch (Sandy Diana Bang, I really like her content! very much that girl/pilates girl aesthetic)

💗 Stuff For Tuesday

actually spend some time studying spanish

start reading Atomic Habits again, this time annotating and really making notes in it (found a pdf that I can write in using my goodnotes app!!)

work a ~4 hour shift

workout in the morning

morning skincare + journaling

night time skincare + journaling

wash my comforter (maybe do it on wednesday?)

💕 Song of The Day: ILL'IT - Lucky Girl Syndrome

ahhh, what a cute song. This song gets me super happy and hyped up for the day, and it's just such a feel-good summery song <3

til next time lovelies 🩷

🎀 Summer Stuff 🎀

I had no idea what to title this, but this is a comprehensive list of my goals, habits, and "dailies" that I am going to accomplish this summer (before I head to Colorado in mid june for 8 weeks of work!)

🩷 Overall Goals/Habits

Daily movement - morning workout AND/OR a hot girl walk (5k to 10k steps a day is my goal for daily steps)

Spanish study - 20+ minutes a day, have a couple italki lessons (already have one booked!)

Daily reading - 30+ minutes daily, nonfiction and/or fiction

Consistent morning routine - hydration, movement, journaling, skincare, etc

Wake up at the same time everyday - debating between 5 and 6am right now (I'm a morning person!)

Try some new things - watch new TV shows, maybe self learn some kpop choreo, dabble in creative writing, try new classes, etc

Consistent night routine - unwind, read, shower/skincare, journal, etc

Go to sleep at same time every night: 10pm or 11pm

Incorporate more wellness into my days - stretching, meditation, yoga/pilates, fruit smoothies

Keep up with all necessary appointments - doctors, therapist, etc

Maintain a healthy diet - high nutrient (fruit and veggie), high ish protein, moderate carbs, moderate fats, lots of water, limited caffiene, highly limited added sugar (loosely track food intake to be more mindful of my choices)

Consistent cleaning and reset routines

Daily affirmations and work on Law of Attraction/Law of Vibration to help manifest my dream life and cultivate my new identity to live my healthier, happier, desired life <3

I am so excited. Something about this summer feels different. This summer feels like the one for me, like I'm seriously going to have my "that girl" summer that I've been hoping for. Lots of rest, recovery, and renewal.

til next time lovelies 🩷

I have a bit of a dilemma and I need some outside opinions.

I have the chance to take the next five weeks off of work (somewhat, they’d need help with some things maybe six days I know for sure in the next five weeks). During this time, I’ll receive a paycheck near the end of May, and I can file for unemployment benefits until I go to Colorado in mid June. I wanted to take this time initially to continue studying Spanish, work on my health, and build some good lifestyle habits.

however, I’ve been contacted by a different branch of my company on the university campus to help with dorm cleaning for the summer until I leave. All I know for now is that I’d work ten hours on Monday, from 7am to 5pm, and then I’d find out the schedule going forward. I don’t drive or have a car so I’m a little worried about traveling around campus for cleaning, especially since my friends aren’t going to be working with the dorm cleaning either.

part of me says take the break from work, enjoy life a little bit until you go to Colorado, and file for unemployment. (I’d work 40 hours a week for 8 weeks in Colorado). The other part of me says that I should keep working and make the money because it’ll be decently more then unemployment would give me. Mentally and emotionally, I am a bit burnt out from my semester of work and really do want some time off. But the financial aspect of it is what is keeping me torn.

what should I do?

Daily Check-in: May 9, 2024 🎀

Thursday was a good day that ended on a sour note, but that happens sometimes, especially ok days when my therapy sessions go a little deeper. But it's all a part of the healing process.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

read 10 pages of a book

studied Spanish for 23 minutes

booked an italki lesson for the 21st

had an hour long therapy session

did my full night skincare

planned out some stuff

rescheduled my plans with my friend for Friday since she had stuff she had forgotten about

talked to my dad

zoomed with my boyfriend

re evaluated some of my health goals and action step

💞 Good Things That Happened:

I passed psyc with an A and all my grades are currently passing

I bought a watermelon!!!

took a 45 minute nap

my roommates washed some of my dishes (they've been petty for jo reason lately and have not been very nice so seeing that they did some of my dishes was nice. despite them throwing away my full, barely opened bag of spinach. but oh well)

💗 Stuff For Friday

cleaning final for restaurant class 1030am to 130pm

study spanish

read my daily minimum of a book

re plan my workouts for next week

sort out getting back to my morning routine

do my night time skincare

finish my very last assignment for the semester

go shopping and grab coffee with my friend

Thursday reminded me that I don't like staying in my room/in my bed like that because it just brings me down. My goals for this summer before I head to Colorado are to take walks, stay active, sit at my desk, keep my step count up, and just take care of myself. I deserve all the self-love and self care <3

💕 Song of The Day: aespa - Spicy

this feels like a summer vibe type of song.

til next time lovelies 🩷

Spanish Langblr Side Blog <3

Hello lovelies!

I want to get some more practice in my Spanish studying, specifically my writing and reading skills. I want to start posting some writing in Spanish on Tumblr but I'm a bit wary of doing so on my main profile because I feel like it's going to throw off the vibe and aesthetic of my blog. That being said, I am going to create a Spanish side blog! I hope you guys will give me a follow over there and help me out with my sentence structure, vocabulary, grammar, and just how I'm doing in Spanish overall!

Username: @ros3ybabespanish

follow the side blog if you love language learning content <3

Daily Check-in: May 8, 2024 🎀

Wednesday did not go as expected whatsoever! But it wasn't too bad, I'm not mad about it! I had a decently good day and feel happy with everything now.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

studied Spanish for 11 minutes

read 17 pages of a book

did my morning skincare

took my chemistry final

cooked a deliciously healthy breakfast

worked a ~6 hour shift

did my laundry

made plans with my friend to go shopping and grab dinner on Thursday

💞 Good Things That Happened:

I passed my psyc quiz and ended the class with an A!

all my current grades are 85% and higher!!!

made plans with my friend, which I'm super excited about

got to zoom with my boyfriend

slept in til 8am

💗 Stuff For Thursday

purchase plane ticket for summer work!

file for summer unemployment (only up until I leave in mid-June, I won't have work til then)

therapy session via zoom

reschedule dietetic appointment

order some groceries

make list for shopping with friend

journal

study spanish for daily minium

read at least 10 pages of a book

look for suitcase for flight

I'm so excited for Thursday right now. It's gonna be such a good day for me omg.

💕 Song of The Day: Baby Tate - I Am

my manifestation song fr. I love this song so much. It's such a high frequency vibe <3333

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 7, 2024 🎀

Tuesday was so so so so soooooo tiring omg. It's Wednesday and I'm still recovering from how exhausting Tuesday was. It was a good day, but geesh I'm so happy I'll have time off from school and work soon.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

studied Spanish for 11 minutes

read 13 pages of a book

walked over 13.6k steps

worked an ~8 hour shift

studied chemistry + took 3 practice exams

took my psyc quiz make up

I seriously cannot remember what else I did but I know I did my main things

💞 Stuff For Wednesday:

study Spanish for my daily minimum

read 10 pages of a book

do my morning and NIGHT SKINCARE (I'm terrible at doing my night skincare consistently)

take my chemistry final (manifesting that A)

work a ~4 hour shift

do my laundry

There was some good yesterday, and definitely some bad. One of my favorite supervisors said he's quitting at the end of this semester (3 days), and I'm so sad because he was genuinely good at his job but I understand that his bosses weren't the best and the management at our job is overall crappy most times. But hopefully, my other favorite supervisor doesn't quit tho i know she feels the same, too. There's a reason I'm getting a 2nd job right now.

💕 Song of The Day: MARINA - Are You Satisfied

this song and Oh No are my aesthetic during the semester. and just in general. love this song <3

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 6, 2024 🎀

Monday was so tiring and very neutral. Some good happened, some bad happened. I went to bed super angry and grumpy last night. But it happens when you're tired like that. I got some stuff done but I need tonrestart my reading habits tracker because i didn't read yesterday.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

studied Spanish for 11 minutes

completed a psyc assignment

involuntarily rescheduled my quiz for psyc for Tuesday morning

completed more chemistry homework

took a 200 question medical terminology final online (I passed, yayyyy)

washed dishes

worked an ~8 hour shift

did my morning skincare

walked over 12.7k steps (I took my watch off for a bit so I think it was closer to 13k)

💞 Good Things That Happened:

my supervisor bought me coffee

my friend joined me in a study room

I stayed consistent at work

I managed to study Spanish

figured out some more summer work stuff

💗 Stuff For Tuesday

study spanish

take my psyc quiz

study chemistry

work a ~10 hour shift

complete more homework

morning skincare and joirnaling

read some of a book

I'm tired. I'm so tired this morning. need all the coffee.

💕 Song of The Day: WOOAH - Blush

what a cutesy song, love the vibe so so much. the choice was between this and Lucky Girl Syndrome. Maybe the latter will be for Tuesday!

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: May 5, 2024 🎀

I disappeared for a few days, I'm sorry! life got busy, I was working non stop and really bad nothing to post about other then work and sleep it felt like. But Sunday was a semi productive day despite having woken up at 1am and not gone to sleep until 10pm that following night. But, we have finals go study for so we persevere.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

did an actual hair oiling routine before I showered

used the Beauty of Joseon Red Bean Pore Cleansing Mask

did my morning journal and skincare

read 13 pages of Good Vibes Good Life

purchased a new book on my kindle app! (You are a Badadd at Making Money, I can't wait to read it. There's another I want to buy soon too)

washed all my towels and put them away

washed my laundry (haven't put it away)

made pasta

planned out my week

studied Spanish for 11 minutes (trying to build a daily habit right now, so consistency is key)

made a packing list for my work in Colorado this summer

had a date night with my boyfriend (we watched two movies over video call together <3)

💞 Good Things That Happened

rested and relaxed

took a 2 hour nap in the morning

had a really long, nice shower

had enough money to order more coffee creamer

my friend was able to book the same flight as me for our work in Colorado!

spent some good time with my boyfriend

talked to my dad on the phone for a bit

💗 Stuff For Monday

study Spanish 10 minutes minimum

read 10 pages minimum of a book

complete some re opened chemistry homework

study for chemistry final

prepare for psyc exam

take psyc exam at 1pm

work a ~7 hour shift

Sunday was good, Monday will hopefully be good as well. I'm feeling positive!

💕 Song of The Day: IVE - Holy Moly

IVE songs have been on rotation for me once again. I love their sound and their energy.

til next time lovelies 🩷

🎀 Goals for May 🎀

Well, I'm two days *late* but it's the beginning of a new month and I figured, why not set a couple of goals for this month? My spring semester ends next Friday, the 10th, so I want to have some things to focus on for this month before I travel to Colorado in June for work <3

🩷 May Goals 🩷

have 1-3 more meeting with my italki teacher

study Spanish for some time every day

get daily movement (either 10k steps or 20+ minutes of a workout, low impact preferably [i love at home mat pilates])

read 10 pages of a book daily

keep up with my accountability buddies (if they still want to!)

maintain a consistent morning and night routine (journaling, skincare, etc)

prepare for my work trip (suitcase, plane ticket, buy my necessities, etc)

start modifying my current food intake (I don't like the word diet) due to a new health issue I discovered with my doctor

not too many goals, not too stressful. I'm going to habit track some of this as well to help keep me motivated, and hopefully continue working with my accountability buddies to keep me on track this summer! here's to another beautiful month of life 💕

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: April 29, 2024 🎀

Monday was such a good day, I'm so so happy with that. Work went good, my friend brought the chocolate covered strawberries I bought, I studied Spanish and did a bunch of homework. Such a good day!

🩷 What I Accomplished:

11 Minute Wake Up Yoga by Yoga with Adriene

12 Minute Yoga for Brain Power by Yoga with Adriene

read a bit if "Good Vibes, Good Life"

studied Spanish (~25 minutes)

completed the last 2 assignments for medical terminology (just have the online final left!)

completed 3/4 of the extra credit surveys fir my psyc class (the 4th link wasn't working)

went to chemistry lecture

worked a ~7.5 hour shift

did minimum night skincare + showered after work

drank ~80oz of water (maybe more? I didn't keep track the best but I kept refilling my bottle before it was completely empty)

did my entire morning routine (I really enjoy my morning journaling, morning movement, making my bed, doing my skincare, all of it)

signed up for summer cleaning work for the first month before I leave to another state for work

💞 Good Things That Happened:

got the onboarding information for my work in another state for 8 weeks this summer

my co worker and I found out were going to be roommates for the summer work in another state! she's the sweetest and I'm really looking forward to hanging out with her!

recieved the chocolate covered strawberries I bought to support my friend's trip to Italy this summer (it's to help his major!) (I ended up buying more....they were so yummy)

closed my station very efficiently at work and got complimented by my supervisor on how I did

found out I passed the multiple choice part of my latest chemistry exam with a 92! just waiting on the one handwritten question to get graded!

am going to be able to pick up some extra hours this week, thankfully

💗 Stuff For Tuesday:

italki trial lesson for Spanish at 730am (I am nowhere near the level of being able to speak, but I'm hoping this Spanish teacher can help me figure out a study plan and get me to a place where I can speak!)

do my morning routine!

study Spanish after the meeting

work on chemistry homework OR my osyc homework, depends on the time and whatnot

work another ~7.5 hour shift at work

read a bit more of "Good Vibes, Good Life" during the day

have another good day <3

💕 Song of The Day: Sheesh by Babymonster

this song is so good. I like their voices and their vibe and the power I feel listening to this song!

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: April 28, 2024 🎀

No updates for Friday and Saturday, both were just so busy with class, work, and I pulled a double shift on Saturday last minute. But Sunday was super productive, and I'm so happy with that! Woke up at 5am, did some of my morning routine, and just seriously got so much done! Feeling so good about how Sunday went <3

🩷 What I Accomplished:

woke up early

read a chapter of "Good Vibes, Good Life" (I really like this book right now)

washed, folded and put away clothes

washed and put away towels

washed sheets, pillowcases, comforter, and blankets

washed dishes

cleaned the bathroom

dusted the bedroom furniture + window blinds + my table fan

clorox wiped all my electronic devices to disinfect them from the week

swept bedroom

threw out all empties in the bathroom

cleaned out my instagram following and some of my tiktok following (digital detox is in progress)

deleted uber/uber eats off my phone (I have a bad habit of ordering food when I really shouldn't be)

cooked turkey chili from scratch (and it came out so yummy and filling)

morning journaled

night skincare

ordered groceries for the next two weeks

made a brain dump list for the week

planned out morning workouts for the week and updated them on my notion

had a zoom Netflix date with my boyfriend (we talked about our upcoming 2 year anniversary, too. i don't think I'll get to see him in person but we're still gonna make it a good day!)

💞 Good Things That Happened:

honestly, all of it. Sunday was a really good day for me, besides some stuff I had to work through mentally.

💗 Stuff For Monday

complete psyc extra credit research surveys

work on reopened chemistry homework

study Spanish for a while (I have an italki meeting/lesson early Tuesday morning for the first time ever)

read some more of Good Vibes, Good Life

go to class

go to work!

night time skincare and shower after work

💕 Song of The Day: Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter

this song. I love this song. such a girly energy. we love the girly, feminine vibes, 100% 🩷🩷🩷

til next time lovelies 🩷

🎀 Overcoming Gym Anxiety 🎀

I got asked about this through my inbox by @sxfiaaa so I figured I'd make a post about it and hopefully help a lot of people with something I too used to struggle with!

🩷 Wear Comfortable Clothing

We've all seen the beautifully dressed people on Tiktok, Pinterest, etc in their matching sets and cutr gym clothes. If that is what you're comfortable wearing to the gym, do it! Wear it, and be confident in it! If you're more of a loose clothes/sweatpants/baggy shirts or hoodie type of person, do that! Wear whatever you feel comfortable (and cute) in, because the better you feel going into a workout, the more you'll be able to focus on your workout!

🩷 Know What You're Doing When You're There

This just means go in with a plan! You don't need to know how to use every single machine or do every single exercise known to mankind. Scroll tiktok or pinterest for some workout videos for inspo (please make sure the video you get inspo from shows proper form!!! Proper form is so important for being safe!!)

If you know you can go certain days of the week, make a workout split to follow that! EX 3 day split: Monday - Leg Day, Wednesday - Upper Body, Friday - Full Body

OR, if you just want to go do cardio, then plan for that! I didn't know how to use a treadmill, but I went to the gym at my university and stood on the treadmill til I figured it out!

🩷 Remember This

No one is going to look at you and judge you or think mean things about you. Everyone is at the gym for the purpose of bettering themselves and their health. If you find people giving you occasional glances, maybe it's because they don't recognize you from the gym (or they do recognize you from somewhere else), maybe their admiring your outfit/physique, maybe their avid gym goers who are watching your form and technique, or maybe their just zoned out and you happen to be in the line of sight.

When I'm at the gym, I look around between sets and take note on other people's form to see if maybe I should tweak the way I do a certain exercise, or I'm admiring another girls outfit or physique because there are a lot of beautiful women at the gym. Sometimes, I'm thinking "dang, they're lifting so heavy, how cool!" or "wow, their form is amazing, they really know what they're doing." I've never thought bad abut someone at the gym because why would I?

🩷 Don't Be Scared To Ask For Help

if there an exercise you really want to do but don't know how and videos aren't helping, ask someone around you who isn't in the middle of an exercise and looks like they may know. The guy at the gym doing upper body who has good biceps may be the right guy to ask about upper body exercises. The girl doing impeccable Bulgarian Split Squats might be the right person to ask for help with those types of movements. Just make sure they aren't in the middle of an exercise, because that can cause some unwanted issues, especially if they're mid-rep, that can turn into a safety issue.

People love to help people, especially at the gym. If you politely ask for help from someone, they may take it as a compliment that you think they look like a person who is knowledgeable on working out. I'd definitely be so flattered if someone asked me for help or advice at the gym!

🩷 Random Advice:

remember your why! no matter how anxious you are, remember why you're going! what are your goals, what do you hope to achieve, how proud will you feel after?

start small if you have to! if it's really anxiety inducing to start working out, make it your first goal to at least step into the gym. then 2nd goal, walk around the gym to get a feel for it. 3rd goal, maybe 5-10 minutes on a treadmill, and then keep building momentum each day.

be careful with the hours you go! there is such a thing as peak gym hours. It varies by place, but a lot of gyms are busy between 2pm and 6pm I've seen. I personally love going to the gym super early morning, it's a little less busy and I'm a morning person so it works out for me! If you can only go during peak hours, bring a friend or keep your headphones on and do your thing!

Bring a friend! If you're really anxious about going alone, bring a friend with similar goals! Sometimes it can be a lot nicer to learn something new with a friend then try and learn it on your own! Plus, it's like extra motivation and accountability!

Have a motivating pre workout routine. Play some music while getting ready, prep your bags, prep your playlist, get your workout itself figured out, and just keep yourself excited to go! I love blasting high-energy music that makes me feel like a baddie on my way to the gym.

I hope this was helpful!! My thoughts were everywhere but I tried to convey them as best as possible! I'm happy to answer any questions or offer more tips and advice, don't feel scared to ask! <3

til next time lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: April 24, 2024 🎀

Wednesday started out so rough, I had a really bad stress breakdown from the pressure I was putting on myself for the exam I have today (Thursday), but luckily my dad was able to calm me down over the phone and my boyfriend motivated me and encouraged me. I don't feel as stressed out anymore, I know that I know the material and I'll do great! (it's a chemistry exam)

🩷 What I Accomplished:

studied chemistry for a good bit

completed 3 chemistry homework assignments

scheduled a make-up quiz for my psyc class

did the Total Body Pilates video from Blogilates

did the 11 minute Wake Up Yoga from Yoga with Adriene

did my morning skincare and journaling

actually, just did my entire morning routine and felt great about it

shipped off shorts I sold on depop

went to chemistry lecture to review for the exam

went to my virtual appointment with a registered dietitian and set some goals for the next 2 weeks

decided to join a step challenge with my health insurance company to win points (they have some cool things in their points shop, plus extra steps during the day is good for my health!)

washed my laundry

made a brain dump list for the remainder of the week

💞 Good Things That Happened:

I really like the dietitian I met with and have another appointment with her in 2 weeks

I really enjoyed using my new 40oz Simple Modern insulated tumbler cup

didn't let my stress breakdown make me go home, very proud of myself for sticking to my plans

went to sleep early

sold another item on depop!

I felt very reassured that I know the content that is going to be on my upcoming exam

the guy who makes sushi at my campus food court made sushi for me and held it until I went to get it so no one would buy it, i could've cried it was so nice of him

I drank coffee on campus and it didn't hurt my stomach for once!

💔 What Could've Gone Better:

need to put less pressure on myself

had some issues with food after my dietitian appointment (sometimes thinking too much about food can be triggering for me, tbh, but my goals are nutrient based which is helpful!!)

started crying before I went to bed because I was feeling oddly emotional (I think I'm starting my period soon)

had to turn down a work shift because I had too much school stuff and that appointment (I need the money so bad tho)

did not drink near enough water

need to be more patient and gentle with myself

also need to really figure out what's going on with my priorities, I keep struggling to do the things I say I'm going to do which is difficult for me to deal with sometimes

need to remember progress over perfection, 50% is always better then doing 0% of something

💗 Stuff For Thursday

clean my room

listen to a podcast episode

maybe do some more laundry

make a grocery list

clean my bathroom

therapy today over video call

reschedule a morning appointment

chemistry exam tonight

try to ship off the shirt I sold on depop

do some more planning and organizing for my life

that's all for now! Thursdays gonna be good. My exam is gonna go great! I have confidence in myself, and my knowledge and I know I've got this!

til next time lovelies 🩷

💕 Song of The Day: Baddie by IVE

Gotta remind myself of this sometimes <3

Hello lovelies <3 I've decided I really would love to start posting more advice/tips/lifestyle content along with my daily updates and study content, but I have no idea where to actually start. So, I would love it if you guys could send me asks with things you'd want to know about, things you want advice or tips on, or even some of my own routines and habits you'd want to know about! I will do my absolute best to answer and be as thorough and thoughtful in my tips/advice/lifestyle content, so please feel free to flood my inbox! <333

til next time, lovelies 🩷

Daily Check-in: April 22, 2024 🎀

Monday was okay. Monday was good. Monday was busy and I ended the day so so so tired. And I'm still stressed financially at the moment. But that's okay! Life always works out the way it should!

🩷 What I Accomplished:

made it to my job interview for the 2nd job a little early and did a good job ( I won't hear back for a while tho cause of the timing of interviews, finals, etc)

did the 11 minute Wake Up Yoga by Yoga with Adriene

did the 16-minute Yoga for Flexibility by Yoga with Adriene

got +12k steps (have no idea how many but I hit 10k by 630pm and I didn't leave work until 10pm)

worked a ~7hour shift

did my night time skincare routine after work

did my morning gratitude journaling

💞 Good Things That Happened:

my friend at work is going to help me purchase my plane ticket for work this summer and I could cry, it's so kind of her and I'm so grateful I have a friend like her <3

did good in my job interview!

accomplished my morning routine + woke up at a decent time

made it to my chemistry lecture + actually paid attention and took notes

talked to my dad on the phone a little bit

kept up with how abnormally busy it was at work and got complimented by my supervisors

my request for time off for a day in May got approved

tried new makeup that looked good (sephora brow gel and rare beauty Mascara for the win!)

💗 Stuff For Tuesday:

refocus on academics + study chemistry after class for the upcoming exam

start studying Spanish again (I have an italki lesson in 1 week)

prepare for nutrition coaching that's on Wednesday

prep for module quiz for psyc class

complete morning and night journaling

do morning and night skincare

order more waters for the week (essentia + 40pk of normal waters, the city tap water is absolutely disgusting in my town)

zoom call with the boyfriend

try to get 8k to 10k steps again!

I am going to make Tuesday a good day. I am going to make the most of every day and see the positives as much as I can. I am so tired right now, but I'm going to have a good day regardless.

til next time lovelies 🩷

💕 Song of The Day: Lion by (G)-Idle

This song has been making me feel some sort of way lately, I'm definitely a huge huge stan of (G)-Idle (and our girl Soojin, ofc <3)