Undiagnosed Disability - Blog Posts

Happy Disability Pride Month everyone!

We have once again been reminded that we might not be able to work a job by seeing what is required by some jobs and knowing that we can't/can't always do those things.

This shit sucks cause we need money. And more specifically, we need money that doesn't come from the body's dad as we want to get away from him [cause of him being transphobic, homophobic, etc.]. And he doesn't even get ***that much*** money. He is disabled and a retired veteran.

We also need money to get a service dog, which might make working easier/doable, but also we just might not be able to work at all.

We don't even really know what "reasonable accommodation(s)" means for most jobs. Let's say, for example, a place requires a worker to be able to lift like 50 pounds. If someone can't lift that, are they allowed accommodation for that? Is it based on the place specifically?

Working and job stuff are hard to figure out. If any being has any tips on this stuff, please share it with us. (We live in the US, btw. We don't want to share what state, though, so that might affect stuff).

- Shay 🐾

Adding on to the vent.

Tw/cw: suicide mention, suicidal thoughts, and shit like that

What do you do when in past lives you were disabled but still did stuff that you can't in this life?

What do you do when you realize that you should be more able to do stuff in this life but you are less able?

What do you do when you can't even talk about most of this to most people you know in person cause they wouldn't understand and would hate you?

What do you do when you want to make yourself more disabled than you already are?

What do you do when you are so close to trying to end it all because you can't see why you should keep living?

What do you do when you don't even think you could end it all cause you're scared and just not really wanting to end it all?

What do you do when you can't mention this to people cause you don't want to be sent away even when the place you're currently at sucks?

What do you do when you want to live but you want to die?

- Shay 🐾

Little vent from us. We are kinda going through some shit rn.

We don't think there are any tw/cw but if there are let us know.

What do you do when you realize that you might not be able to work a "normal" job or maybe any job at all ever?

What do you do when you realize that your disabilities affect what you are able to do in ways that are so against what you wanted to do and what you wish you could do?

What do you do when disabilities are actually disabling?

What do you do when other people don't understand even when they are disabled themselves?

What do you do in any situations where disabilities affect what happens?

What do you do when you need to tell people and make them understand that you are disabled and that means you can't do the same things as others?

- Shay 🐾

What do you do when you are disabled?

Little vent from us. We are kinda going through some shit rn.

We don't think there are any tw/cw but if there are let us know.

What do you do when you realize that you might not be able to work a "normal" job or maybe any job at all ever?

What do you do when you realize that your disabilities affect what you are able to do in ways that are so against what you wanted to do and what you wish you could do?

What do you do when disabilities are actually disabling?

What do you do when other people don't understand even when they are disabled themselves?

What do you do in any situations where disabilities affect what happens?

What do you do when you need to tell people and make them understand that you are disabled and that means you can't do the same things as others?

- Shay 🐾

What do you do when you are disabled?

Absolutely, it's a good feeling to know that you have everything you need close by!!

- Shay (They/it)

My family always gets annoyed I keep a bad with me (either in the car or on my person) but I need it

It has my money, my id/my learners permit, noise cancelling headphones, blue tooth headphones and ear buds, period pads, small snacks in case I didn't eat and/or I feel fainty, A book for in case I need something to focus on/fill time, a couple bracelets and a plushie to fidget with and help if I have a melt down, as well as my tablet for my music for car rides and to distract from the other over stimulating noises and my house keys, and a small notebook and a pen/pencil in case I need to write something down so I remember it or doodle

All in just a medium sized backpack

I don't always bring it in with me depending on the circumstances, but I like knowing everything I need I have at least somewhat close

When I actually get my shit together and work on getting a service dog in this life, I am probably gonna try and get a german shepherd and name them Remo or something similar cause yeah.

When I get my shit together, I will probably be asking for donations, but I want to know more before asking for money. I am unsure of what program I am going to use exactly, I have an idea, but idk yet.

I should probably try and get diagnosed anxiety [cause I haven't been diagnosed, but it's definitely obvious] and maybe look into OCD and PTSD more? I know I have trauma and shit, I just don't know if it's PTSD levels or whatever. And the OCD I am unsure if it's just the AuDHD combo or OCD as well.

If anyone has any advice about any of this that relates to America, please feel free to give the advice.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.

When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.

I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c

I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.

When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.

I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c