Wake Up Call - Blog Posts

If being different is a crime then the more rare and different traits a person expresses, the more different they are and the more they're hated.

I am ASD, ADD, nonconformist, as well as extremely intelligent, I may even be a savant with extreme gifts but I'm trying to find somebody to help me determine what's what and that is proving to be really difficult.

Point is, I'm so rare and I have so many traits that people hate that I've been turned into a dead man walking for the past 24 years. I'm not allowed to speak in public. I don't have equal rights. I have no legal protections. I get denied basic medical and dental care. There's no point in me joining any group anywhere ever. No point in the investing in social media hardly at all. No point me really doing anything because it all gets sabotaged. I just keep getting my time eviscerated because of other people's unrealistic expectations and their prejudices.

Even when people aren't prejudice towards me, they still feel like they can't be my friend for whatever reason. I'm always alienated.

And then people tell me all the time, just stop talking about your intelligence. I'm like, you mean don't speak because if I speak I'll display my intelligence and get fucking canceled anyway? How about you tell some people with ASD to just not be ASD anymore? How about you tell someone who is a racial minority to just not be the color that they are? It's fucking absurd. The double standard is disgusting.

I'm not going to talk about anything else until the world faces this. Every time I say something, people respond with the same ableist still mongering apologist type of BS that was applied to protecting racism, oppression of women and every different sexual state of being.

I even have to make sure that everyone follows me outside of social media and even add email contact because I'll get banned everywhere, always. The only way to avoid it is not speaking or just sharing art or something. Which is absurd that I can't actually be honest with anybody. I can't speak intelligently without being attacked and then I'm not allowed to defend myself verbally. No wonder people turn to violence. No wonder people just suicide or mutism.

And then professionals are stumped as to why certain things like this happen. Well, that's just because they've never spoken to me before so I can't enlighten them and that's because I've been oppressed and nobody knows I exist. How convenient.

Signed, bobboss#3563 discord

Best check your hate before it's too late. Young adults, actual adults and children alike are all implementing cancel culture to destroy the lives of intelligent people who won't keep their mouths shut about it or who dare show them that their opinions are wrong and make them feel stupid. Their insecurities should not be a justification to target us with shunning because when it's for a prolonged period or it destroys our ability to make money, it's torture as well as a danger for our health. It really should be a crime and the social media company should be held accountable for it. They enable it after all. Even the moderators of these platforms hate anyone who's smarter than them and it's the same thing if we intelligent people try to go get a job, we won't get hired because the boss doesn't want competition.

Most importantly to note, shunning is what cult leaders use to coerce and bully all of the people into conformity so they can protect their position as the ruler of everything in the decider of all. 14-year-olds are doing this on the internet. Anybody who gets to start a community anywhere on the internet is usually doing it. Every single platform, the terms of service are pretty reflective of occult that enables Mass conformity of which favors religiosity. Failure to separate church and state and of course religious people hate intelligent logical people, especially when we won't enable their delusions. And again, no laws protect intelligent people from discrimination and no laws protect non-believers from being discriminated against by religious people. Double standards. Hypocrisy. it's in atrocity. I'm honest and honesty is a crime. I've been turned into a Dead Man walking for the past 24 years for doing the right thing. Shame shame shame and crimes against humanity is what all of this is. I will not be ashamed that I'm smarter than the majority and I won't hide it. I'm not going to be oppressed in the silence. If you're wrong I'm going to tell you you're wrong. It shouldn't be a crime to be intelligent. It shouldn't be a crime to express intelligence. And all the people who judge me are hypocrites who are pretending that they're smart enough to judge such complex situation in such a complex person, they're narcissists and they think I'm the narcissist which is projecting. And then they tell me that I need to be humble, so what like you're better than me because you're so socially and communicatively Superior with your humbleness? You don't see the hypocrisy there? And how convenient that me feigning humility would serve to protect all of your erroneous opinions, right? How convenient that I won't be your competition as you pretend to be tribal wise people if I just shut up all the time, right? You're all robbing intelligent people of their voice in this world and mass bullying everything into being made just for you toxic conservative majority. shame shame shame on all of you. Yep, I'm right and you've never heard the truth in your entire lives. You're welcome. Now go ahead, ruin my life, it's already ruined. You got nothing to hold over me. When someone doesn't have anything to lose, they don't care about your rules that's another reason why it's dangerous for everyone to do what keep this petty tripe up.

I am a leaver. I am a blocker. I will not stick around after disrespect. I will cut you off and you will be informed about that. I will remove myself the moment I see that a friendship or relationship makes me suffer. I will exit the situation at the first given opportunity. And I always do.

The “manifestation” agenda summarised in a few, simple words:

Book: Atomic Habits by James Clear.

If I may say, there is a exceptionally thin line between being unbothered and focused on yourself and being so out of touch with reality to a point even a legitimate critic that is not aligned with the persona you manufactured is seen as out of pocket.

In circumstances similar to the latter, please consider waking the fuck up.

This morning, my therapist shared this really useful hack and I feel like it could be useful to share: it is the pie chart method.

Essentially, it is a great tool to identify the behaviours, situations and events that caused a certain effect, in order for you to truly understand what really happened.

You simply draw a circle, identify the circumstances that caused the outcome and give each situation a percentage of its influence on the outcome.

For example: you bake a cake but it turns out horribly. It could be that 45% of the fault could be given to the oven that has malfunctioned, 30% to the wrongly calculated measurements of the ingredients, and 25% of your inexperience baking a cake. In the end, you will realise that it may not be your fault, and therefore you should stop being so angry at yourself.

Disclaimer: sometimes the fault could be given to you. This is a useful method for those of you who may constantly be harsh to yourselves.

Chase yourself, and the rest will fall apart as it is meant to be.

Stop sharing your goals, vision boards, new year resolutions with the public. Share the results and the accomplishments only.

My dear,

What they said is exactly what you heard. What they did is exactly what you saw. Do not look for further confirmation of their actions - or lack of action.

God and the Universe will reveal us the truth, and it is often difficult to digest. But that is the simple reality of the matter. Swift away, cut them off and do not allow any further access to you and your precious time.

Pain is temporary, but self preservation and recovery are forever.

“But investing is hard! But I do not want to break up, because then I’ll be alone! But learning is for few selected people! But I do not have time! But people will stare! But that sounds hard!”

But struggling is alright? K.

I stopped investing myself in the kpop scenery after Jonghyun's passing so I was pondering about writing about Sulli since the news came, and I still don't know if I should.

Jonghyun's passing was a great deal to me, I cried, I was triggered, and my mind was very unkind to me after it for a while. I was scared. And kpop became unbearable to me, I casually listen to some songs here and then but not as much or as frequently as I used to. I deleted all kpop from my music library and when I listen to it it's on YouTube cause I don't want spotify to start putting kpop everywhere on my tm.

I was never a big fan of f(x). I wasn't very aware of the group's story or its ups and downs but I enjoyed them. I always thought it was one of the best girl groups out there, so dynamic and talented. They were nice girls, very likeable. All of them. Luna was one of the best main vocals of the second generation, in my opinion. And they didn't go further because of SM's treatment and management... they could've been HUGE.

Im so sad to hear about Sulli. And I'm sorry for every fan out there that woke up to this news. Please take care of Korean idols, and mostly female ones, they get more hate than their male counterparts. They're hated for a bunch of reasons that male idols aren't, like being sexy, showing skin and being vocal.

That is what Sulli was, she was a quite vocal young woman in an extremely conservative, old fashioned and sexist country and industry. She was only 25.

Im tired of hearing of idols being mistreated and in poor health (both physically and mentally) because of the kpop industry. It doesn't matter what company they're from, all of them go through the same crap because this companies work towards commercialization and marketability according to the industry and the audience demands.

Groups from small companies are in far more precarious situations that the ones on the big three, don't get me wrong those three deserve every bit of criticism and accountability they get from us BUT "irrelevant" groups from small companies are treated WORSE. Most of them aren't paid at all and charged, instead, for their training, and they accumulate debts towards the company that they aren't capable of ever really paying because they keep taking dancing, singing and acting lessons that they're charged for and that they HAVE to take if they want to have a minimal chance at debuting, and if they have already debuted they don't get paid until they've settled their debt. And because the company is small and they have no resources or money, sometimes, sasaengs "sponsor" them in exchange of information and actual dates with the idols, that they can't refuse because of the company and their contracts (because of this contracts they can't leave, unless they pay the debt fully), exposing themselves to dangerous scenarios, and this sponsorship is added to the debt.

The reason I'm saying all of this is because I want you all to realize and acknowledge how f*cked up the kpop industry is and how much we, as international fans, need to care and take care of them and demand a change in how this gets down.

I want you to be conscious of how many idols are in this situation but we don't hear of it because they're irrelevant or simply because theyre not on the infamous big three. The big three are not trash, is the whole industry. Many young girls and boys feel like Sulli and have made radical decisions because of their situation.

If you're a kpop fan PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE care about what goes behind close doors. Care about your idols. START CARING AND DEMANDING BETTER TREATMENT OF THE ARTISTS YOU CLAIM TO SUPPORT AND LOVE.

P.S. Hara attempted suicide too not so long ago, so I can only imagine what she must be going through right now given that and the fact that she was close with Sulli, support Sulli's close friends in this time of need, please.