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equines & being neurodivergent

Different breeds of turtle

ik the valentine ask game is old but adoration, confession and smitten for Reid?

Ah! Yes of course!! Reid, you have gotten some questions!!

adoration — how would your f/o speak about you to someone else?

How I speak about Sammy? Hm, I do not think I go overboard with it. Yes, there have been times where I have rambled about her to some friends, but it’s a normal thing to do, correct?

confession — how’d the confession happen, and looking back on it, what are your (and f/o’s) thoughts abt how you both were back then?

Ah, the confession…*ahem* Yes, well, it merely happened as a..blurt out one. I had originally planned it to be quite different, and quite a bit more romantic, yet it seemed things had other plans.

smitten — was it easy for the people around you and f/o to figure out you liked each other? did they get involved in you getting together at all?

Yes, people did indeed find out. I work in a group that is full of profilers, it was bound to happen. As for them getting involved, I may had asked a couple of questions personally, but no I do not believe they gave any advice or tried to get involved.

They did actually, it’s just that it was me being questioned about how I felt about him and profiled to a major degree. He doesn’t know that though-

Mhm? Did you say something, Sammy?

Ah, no, nothing. No need to worry, Reid. ^^

My F/O List

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•Venti (Tag used: May the Wind Guide us)

•Zhongli (Tag Used: Ice and Rock)

•Signora (Tag Used: Fiery Passion 🔥)

•Albedo (Tag Used: Dragonspine Love💙🤍)

•Xiao (Tag Used: My Dear Protector 💚)

• Tartaglia/Childe (Tag Used: Okay, Whale Boi 🐳)

•Nagito Komadea (Tag Used: Luckiest Hope🍀)

•Yuji Itadori (Tag Used: Cursed Together)

•Yandere-Yun (Tag Used: Dangerously Obsessed 🖤)

•Satan (Obey Me) (Tag Used: Book Lovers💚)

•Leviathan (Obey Me) (Tag Uses: Anime Forever ❤️)

•Saeyoung/707 (Tag Used: Hacked Heart ❤️❤️) (Feel Uncomfy with Sharing)

•Vyn (Tag Used: Psychological Love 💕)

• Scaramouche (Tag Used: The Exception 💜)

• Azul Ashengrotto (Tag used: Poor Unfortunate Souls 🐙)

• Sebek Zigvolt (Tag used: Shocking Duo ⚡️

•Shadow the Hedgehog (Tag Used: Love Again ❤️‍🩹)

Spencer Reid (Tag Used: Different 📚)(Feel Uncomfy Sharing)

•Zack Foster (Tag Used: Psychopath and the Sweet 💀)

•Ciel Phantomhive (Tag Used: Guard Dog and the Butterfly)

•Sundrop/Moondrop (Tag used: Love Eclipse ☀️🌙)

•Hunter (Owl House) (Tag used: Help me Heal ❤️‍🩹)

Ryuji Sakamoto (Tag Used: Heart’s Treasure 💛)

Karma Akabane (Tag Used: Assassin’s Heart)

Sasuke Uchiha (Tag Used: Walls Broken)

Sun Wukong LMK (Tag Used: Loved you like the Sun ☀️)

Rin Okumura (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.) (Not comfy Sharing)

Death the Kid (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

N Harmonia (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when Known)

Malleus Draconia (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known)

Nightmare Sans (Passive and corruptive) (Tag used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known)

Monika (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Kisshu (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Ryunosuke Akutagawa (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Madoka Kaname (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Hinata Shoyo (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Asta (Black Clover) (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Bakugo Katsuki (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Ayato Sakamaki (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Shu Sakamaki (Tag Used: Tag.Exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Ruki Mukami (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Kazuto Kirigaya (Kirito) (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Gray Fullbuster (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Subaru Akehoshi (Ensemble Stars!) (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Yugi Mutou (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known.)

Yamato Ishida “Matt” (Tag Used: Tag.exe has yet to be found, will update when known)

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Platonic f/o

•Kazuha (A wonderful friend who gives way too good of advice-)

•Jaehee (Older sister)

•Gojo Satori (Father-)

•Zen (Friends but the type of friends who tease the hell out of each other)

• Hajime Hinata (Frieeeend—)

• Bennett (Younger Brother)

• The Collector (Adopted kid)

• Vil Schoenheit (Older Brother)

• Dire Crowley (Father)

• Gyutaro + Daki (Older Siblings)

• Anya Forger (Younger sister)

• Rui (Kimetsu No Yaiba) (Younger Brother)

• Shura Kirigakure (Older sister/Mother figure)

•Loid Forger (Older Brother)

• Franken Stein (Soul Eater) (Father)

Louder for the people at the back!!!

Maybe it's not them. Maybe it's us—attracting a certain kind of people.

I’m tired of meeting the same people in different bodies.

whoopsie, my hand slipped

We should be fine as long as we do not reblog bread.

I was all of these at some point while reading SoW

dorky landlord releases a new book: the moodboard

NGL the idea of being properly seen unlocking one's latent superpowers is a pretty banger concept

Absolutely astonished that while helping a lady today she turned and said, “Your eyes are different colors!”

Reader. My eyes are different colors but it’s so subtle that I’ve had close friends who couldn’t tell the difference. I’ve excitedly told people only to have them clock it and go, “That’s it?”

I’ve had multiple people I’ve known for years see my eyes in sunlight and go, “Oh! Your eyes are green!”

Mom mother still calls me her blue eyed girl.

But here comes this beautiful lady. Who I’d only known for five minutes was just gushing about how cool it was that one of my eyes was greener and the other bluer and how she desperately wanted a dog with heterochromia and how she thought it was super noticeable.

My day is made. I feel like an anime protagonist. I could leap a tall building. I think this unlocked superpowers, probably.

Dont be afraid to be different

Create your own world

Dance in it

Cry in it

Drown in it

Die in it

Happiness is a question

You are the answer

Pretty damn cool.

Wow!!!

Blue galaxy.

Editing.

“Here she was sleeping, in form not a day older than when she was lost.”

sexy tattoos on her body

"Weird one out"

— Forgetting one's true self to find friendship.

There's something so sad about being alone, for the sole reason that you were different. You just can't seem to fit in, you try to blend in, compete in competitions to be seen, butt into group discussions, and replacing your humor and true self to be seen, heard, and most importantly; to avoid being left out.

"You're weird."

They laugh at you, of course as a joke. They think you're quirky, a bit out of place, and awkward. You're funny to them, you're finally seen, but as a joke. It's a bitter moment for you but that's okay, it really is. It's okay because they're friendly now, right? You're their friend now, you're a part of them, all you have to do is to be funny because that's what they want from you. You need to act on this comedic persona so you'll finally have friends, don't worry they'll eventually see who you truly are once they're comfortable with you.

But they don't.

Who the hell are you kidding? You're just a casual friend to them— no, you're just an acquaintance. Oh well, you'll find other groups to try and fit in, and then you did! The kids behind class are just as quirky as you so that means they'll understand, right? With the first few you weren't so lucky but this time is different. They're different, just like you.

But they don't like you.

You don't exactly fit their archetype of what is "quirky". Unfortunately you don't fit the aesthetic they were hoping for. Even to the smaller groups you don't fit in, because they've made up their minds on who and what they are as a person. They don't know the true you since you put up too many faces to hide what's beneath, you're weird not because you're you, but because you don't even know who you are anymore.

Everyone knows you differently, in the pursuit to find companionship you've created too many faces for only one body. Which one is your true face? Do you even know yourself anymore?

It's so lonely out here.

Once upon a time I tried cooking fish a certain way and it didn't come out the way I wanted it to. I first fried it in oil at high heat and it got stuck on the surface of the pan.😩

And my first thought was "well, it was probably because the heat was too much." 🥵🥵

And so the next time I tried frying it, I did it on low heat and still the fish got stuck to the pan and turn into little pieces. And I thought "maybe it's because of the pan I was using." 🍳🥘

So since that was the only type we had, I had to find a different way of cooking fish without it sticking to the bottom of the pan.(Of course I could've just roasted it in the oven but that takes too much time and more electricity)🕑⌛⚡

I wanted the easiest and quickest way possible. And so after going through a dew YouTube videos I came across a video where they the dish by first putting the tomatoes, garlic and onions and then putting the fish on top, that way it doesn't stick and it's easier to turn over. And so that's how I had been cooking fish for that entire time. 😇

Now a few days ago, my dad bought fish again. This fish looked different and so I decided to go back to frying it first and see if it would work and Lo and behold it worked!

It didn't stick to the pan and it was on high heat. No flour coating whatsoever. 🐟🐟

So now I was wondering what was different then and now and maybe it's because of the type of fish. Or the thickness of the skin.

Anyway the point of this story is about creativity. When we hear of people being creative, we sometimes think of artists, singers, actors etc. We never really see ourselves as creative unless we are doing artistic stuff like drawing, writing, painting or whatever. And so I remember reading somewhere about how being creative is in every living being. It's in our nature being creative. 🍥

Doing something a different way makes you a creative. Me deciding to cook that fish dish differently makes me creative. Deciding to take a different route home makes you creative.

Doing something different brings out a different outcome, sometimes something that we would've never imagined. And maybe by doing that you find a way of working that you weren't aware of.

Who would've thought my fish dishes would turn to smithereens. It tasted different, a nice different. Probably because of the texture. Would I intentionally cook it again? No.

But maybe if I was a chef looking to polish my culinary skills I would find a way to incorporate it into another dish where it creates the right flavour based on that texture.👨‍🍳🔪

And so doing something different might lead to new discoveries. So in what ways are you choosing to do things differently?🌱✨🌱

What makes White Collar hold up so much better than other police procedurals:

It was part of the "pretty happy shows with gorgeous ensemble casts and a charismatic weird guy" USA network era but it somehow used that to be about stuff that is so REAL

What is justice? Is our system fair? Can you be a criminal and still be a good man? Can you be a good man and still work for the system?

The bad guys are rich assholes, and people defrauding families out of their homes, and unethical pharmaceutical companies. People manipulating energy supply out of greed resulting in blackouts which are showing *harming a dog,* aka how to show something is monstrous in a pg show written by a white person. Class exists in this universe in more ways than having a cardboard concept of a "rich guy."

The bad guys include police, FBI agents, prison staff, judges, senators. Those people cause real harm, obstruct justice, plant evidence, kill people. It's shown how the system protects them and harms regular people.

The harm that causes the main character to go from wanting to be part of the system, to subverting and working against it, is him finding out about an act of police corruption, brutality, and murder--and what's more, that if he became a cop, that's what he could become.

The harm that causes the main character to be outside the white picket fence is that the system failed his family after that act. What happened to Neal's mom? Why did nobody besides Helen step in? They had to check in with US Marshals, did nobody notice this kid didn't have an adult fit to parent?

So Neal turns to found family. And let's be real, heavily polyamory coded found family at that. But he keeps chasing the idea of a girl who will be everything. But he's got all this attachment trauma so he never does. But because found family is real family, even the people who freaking played the characters are still connected a decade later

BBQ N FRANK Collabs

(via https://soundcloud.com/bbqwhore/mf-doom-vomitspit-bbqwhores-avantwadds-remix?utm_source=soundcloud&utm_campaign=share&utm_medium=tumblr)

Pre-Mature E-Mix # 14

experimental performance art music video

(via https://soundcloud.com/bbqwhore/avantwadds-the-prick-song?utm_source=soundcloud&utm_campaign=share&utm_medium=tumblr)

Last nights graphic art bar collab between me and Frank was like a flood

A highly requested Live original experimental electronic song

Listen and download HERE

I’m In For The Ride

I find it funny that

White roses tarnish with age

I'm scared my love

Will have wrinkles the next time I will meet

Will it be you or me at the welcome mat?

Maybe I will keep your coat hanger for my rage

Like Cinderella shoe, or someone’s glove

I keep your writing as a treat

I'm in need of a deep conversation

And I think you'd be perfection

I wonder your thoughts on bottling up fear

And using the pressure like a Coke and Mentos rocket

Blast off with irritation

And safety goggles for protection

We could talk about what we think of Shakespeare

And girls pockets

When it comes to talking

I just don’t know how or where to start

Maybe I'm in need of a brave summer vacation

I have don’t have many ideas though

I just have to keep a rolling and a rocking

I also have to learn how to part

With hesitation

Learn how to jump head first into something when people are saying no

I have to learn to not think, just do

Every time I go around I want to reach for the gold rings

And see everything I can see before I can’t see

I want to know that if I failed, at least I tried

I find it funny how we all do the same motions but are different each time we carry them through

How we change slowly and want and need different things

I'm scared and I want to break free to be me

Lets see where life will show me and take me to, I'm in for the ride