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Hi, My call me Dee! I'm a 23-year-old NonBinary[Neutrois] Spoonie. Over the past few years, I've gotten a few official DX’s after suffering for years since I was really young. Its been hard trying to come to terms with things and accepting my mind and body for what they are and the illnesses I do have. It's taken this long to stop fighting myself and consider extensive therapy and medicine. I tried when I was younger but being a mentally Ill and hurting kid I didn’t want to accept certain things. Especially when society makes things like mental illness so taboo. But I’m 23 now and I realize I went through nothing a child should ever have to, and yes I survived but at the cost of my mental and physical well being. Coming to terms with that, and that I can't and will never be fully able-bodied is hard. I'm hoping that eventually, I learn to accept and love myself the way I am and stop comparing myself to others. A bit about my conditions:
•C-PTSD
•Anxiety/Panic Disorder [Severe]
•BPD
•Bipolar
•Depression [Severe]
•Dissociative Disorder
•DPDR
•OCD
•Paranoid Personality Disorder
•Maladaptive Daydreaming. [not sure if this counts much.]
| I also think I have OSDD-1b but I'm too scared to tell my new Doctor just yet.
•IBS-D
•Fibromyalgia
•PCOS
•Psoriasis
•Terrible sinus/ear issues that we don't know what it's from yet.
•Eating Disorders. [A and B, as well as BED] •Sluggish Gallbladder
Going to start Vistaril soon for my anxiety. Hope it helps. If anyone is on it too let me know how it helps for you.
Tldr; I'm using this blog as a way to help vent and come to terms with things about my mental and physical health. The past few years have hit me so hard. A lot of trauma memories resurfacing because of trying to recover from abuse and a bad childhood. The stress of this flaring up my body and a lot of invalidation from my mother and family. I just want to at least make a small place for myself where I can feel that I somewhat belong, even a tiny bit.
So..Lets see where this goes. :)