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Oh my god I’m 21 now what the hell
Hi I’m Abby! Hope y’all are doing well! I’m a 20 year old Musician, Twitch streamer and YouTuber that enjoys writing music, poetry, playing video games, and watching horror movies. I’m an all inclusive, sarcastic, and all-around chaotic influencer, I have too many types of content (but that’s mostly over on tiktok💀) I’m working 2 jobs on top of performing music and streaming but I always make time for new friends!
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Hello! I’m Abby! I’m known by Artsy Abby and I’m a mental health advocate as well as social justice fighter. I raise awareness for world issues and a provide links to articles so people can educate themselves on the subject as well as petitions and relief funds for people in need. I have a lot of links in groups based on events and times. For example, as a member of both the LGBTQ+ and POC communities, I’ve got a lot of links that are relevant right now I’ve added to those specific sections. I also have spreadsheets for peaceful protests depending on event (BLM, Roe v Wade, so on and so forth), state/country and affordable therapy (both singular and group). Those can all be found in my linktree attached below.
On top of all that, I’m an influencer and rising musician! I wanted to use my platform for good, and my lyrics always touch on something that people can relate to. Wether it’s mental health struggles, love, feeling alone, you name it, I’ve got a song for that. I want people to know that they’re not alone.
I am currently looking for a studio to record in and a management team or maybe find some sort of agency to work with! I think I have a lot of potential and would love for others to see that.
I just released my third album, Mixed Signals, it’s currently being put on all platforms and I would love to know what y’all think! Here is the link for Apple Music https://music.apple.com/us/album/mixed-signals/1631347119
Here is where you’ll find all my socials, petitions, articles, and so much more. I’ve got it nice and organized: https://linktr.ee/ArtsyAbby
Here is my YouTube, where I post my music and my gaming: https://youtube.com/channel/UCG4RdjmhnqA-fp88EhuesHg
My YouTube music (which is NOT the same as regular YouTube): https://music.youtube.com/channel/UCgtClBsNdPFpVH2pw4R3TRQ
Here’s where you can buy my merch! https://streamlabs.com/artsyabbyplays/merch
My LGBTQ Line merch! https://store.streamelements.com/artsyabbyplays
My Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/artsyxabbyx
My Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/4v2v1GQWuknZTPYNqVWq0H?si=KO6Wh2zCTSGX912fNKSaLQ
My apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/artsy-abby/1618955058
My tiktok: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdPLUgja/
My insta: https://www.instagram.com/its.artsy.abby/?r=nametag
Just raising awareness for the stream I’ve been planning! 6pm EST on January 15th!
Don't sabotage your future peace because familiar chaos is comfortable.
The Prequel
"Welcome to my sweet upside down world."
In 2013 I wrote my first blog piece. I had (have?) zero followers, I rarely posted — at one point it was 2 years between, and yet I still held on to this need to write. "Someone, somewhere wants to hear my story."
Today I’m sitting on my front porch, it’s an unusually warm October day, contemplating things that two decades ago I never thought would be in my brain — Why is my wife upset with me? When do we have to leave for our trans son’s LGBTQ group meeting? Are we taking the dog with us? What will this drive look like next week after the 2024 election?
I'm writing again, today, because aforementioned Wife (THE bestest wife everrrrr) has asked me to take time to focus on my writing - for the first time ever. My goal - share my life. Lots of people - when I share my story/ies - find it interesting. I often think it's quite ... normal? Is that the word? Maybe. If nothing else I feel like I can keep the attention of most people when I share. We shall see. I'm not sure what order makes the most sense, but I have lots of stories to tell, and I am confident they will make their way here.
Shall we?
-Yes, let's.
First blog post - May 14th, 2013:
There is a saying in yoga practice when doing inversion asanas (upside down poses): inversions help you to see your world upside down in practice so you know how to deal better with upside down moments in life.
Let’s just say that I’ve been doing a lot of inversions lately.
Hello, I am the self-titled Bipolar Baker… And welcome to my sweet upside down word.
I was only recently diagnosed, as of May 9th, 2013… Not even a week now. And yet, it feels like I have lived with this disease all my life. I’m already comfortable with its company. My official diagnosis is Bipolar I, rapid cycling, with mixed mania, and Anxiety Disorder. Sounds like fun, right? Actually, it is quite fun…
When I’m in my mania, I am a hoot! I am the social butterfly, the Carrie In The City, the best friend you just met. I am super over productive: writing a 1,450 word paper for school in three hours — in APA format, with citations and five references, without an outline. I am the baker baking forty-eight cupcakes from scratch, with homemade raspberry soufflé icing, individually wrapped in lace and prepped for the bridal shower that is less than ten hours away, which I then co-host with flair (constantly having to remind myself, of course, that I am NOT the center of attention for the next two hours). I am the organizer of clothes into rainbow rows, by type, from left to right, separated by specific hangers into three sections — pants, tops, and dresses/skirts, even coordinating my underthings in their drawers by color.
Color rules my world most days. I get caught up in feeling the deep, cellular green of the late spring leaves inside my head. I watch the wispy feather white clouds drift in slow motion across the infinite Carolina blue sky. I study the amber and coal and hematite hairs on my dog’s coat as he lays beside me, head on my thigh. I see colors as moods, and as auras. It is my gift and my burden as an empath, only adding to the complexity of my mind. In my mania I see starbursts of yellow and honey gold following little children, chasing their worries away…
Luckily, the downs don’t stay as long. “The Crash” I have named it. The free fall after the mania. It is quick and steady: a ride down the steep side of the roller coaster, G-forces pulling at my heart, then a quick upturn to baseline, stomach churning, to wait for another incline, steady again climbing up up up. On grey days baking and my yoga pull me up. I have never found baking difficult, which is how I know it is my “out” when I have crashed. It is the one sweet thing where I can lose my mind, both figuratively and literally. My yoga practice I revel in: morning yoga to invigorate, day yoga to stay motivated, evening yoga to be thoughtful, and night yoga to burn off the stored energy from the day. Usually the night yoga involves the inversions — head stands, bridge pose, arm stands, wheel pose… Feet high above my heart to remind me: be grounded in the air, let that which is real rise above your wounded heart, and let your heart rise above your head.
Again, this is simply the walkway, the entry to my world. I hope you can join me for a few trips, or maybe just one spin... Either way, I hope it's a sweet ride.
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If someone tells you they are depressed and not doing well. Please listen to them it is not your place to judge and tell them they are faking it for attention.
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For whoever needed this today.
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I want you all to stay safe and keep your loved ones and comfort close to you; so much is going on after everything, and I want you guys to do your best to take care of yourselves today.
The best we can do is be there for ourselves and the people who need it.
Comfort one another, be there for each other, do the absolute best you can for your health.
It's completely okay to not have the energy to do shit. We need that time to heal and process everything.
Remember to take care of yourselves.
Don't doomscroll and stay on the internet for too long. Get out of social media, talk with friends, eat a meal, do something you enjoy, make a cool thing, read a book, and just the absolute best you can to make the most out of whatever you have.
Take your time to heal. We all got each other, and we're all here for you.
Take care man. 🫂
cw rant. cw parents, bullying & ableism (?)
since my birthday is a few days away now, i told my mom that i wanted an animal crossing birthday party and a cake and even if she didn’t order the cake, I’ll just have the cake toppers and stick it on my cake. either way is okay.
she goes ahead and asks me why i didn’t tell her sooner but what she doesn’t understand is that, we were ordering a limo to come to my house and go fun places and have the BEST time EVER, so that when I grow older in the future, I can remember all that and to live the best life. on top of that, we were buying a cake, party stuff, balloons, crowns, etc and stuff were OUT of stock and that I didn’t wanna ask and they didn’t see. I DID see a cake that had Tom nook a day ago but when I confirmed the order, it went out of stock FAST. that’s what I said and the MAIN reason why I couldn’t say.
she has the audacity to bring up my neurodivergency and goes “no wonder you’re not normal!” towards me knowing that i struggle with things. and then she goes “can’t you see thats for babies? you’re so old for that anyway..” and I told her, “but it’s my fixation game? getting a cake will just make it better because I’ll be really happy.” and she says, “you’re a fucking grown bitch. you’re not a kid anymore, youre a teen thats working, stop being childish. youre too fucking young for that. pick something else!!!” and then storming out the room.
i just feel really bad because when i was younger, when I played mario kart for the switch, isabelle was the first character that made me addicted to playing as her in the mario kart game and then, when I discovered SSB (smash bros for the 3ds and switch), I became obsessed with both male and female villager. so since they introduced me to animal crossing, that’s when I thought of getting a cake of them so that I can remind myself that nothing can stop me from loving the characters and the game.
SHE LITERALLY BROUGHT ME THE GAME. she KNOWS that I cannot HELP watching it ALL the time. she knows that i like Tom nook and wants his birthday balloon to carry to my work place with party bags but loads of people hate me for being different and neurodivergent. nobody really likes me. expect 2 people. so therefore I can’t do shit about it. I didn’t wanna be seen as the “weird autistic person who likes childish stuff”. but she makes me feel like that.
now I have to do my birthday without it for the last time, and then get it for my next birthday that’ll be next year in 12-13 months since it’s in February.
I just feel so bad and mad at myself for asking cause she brought up how autistic i am. and because she always gets angry for stuff I cannot control nor the amount of stuff I get told. nor my health issues and totally shutting down and lashing out on everyone when mad.
she gaslights me alot also. and is severely negative to me. so now I have to do my birthday without it and have a normal birthday in order to avoid being “weird” or seen as “not normal” and “stupid” and “socially acceptable.”
And she told me to stop watching those characters because they don’t “matter”. like alright i get that im retarded and a weirdo. no need to make me feel dread about it.
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This will probably cause some hate, but:
You aren't always the victim just because you are mentally ill.
You try to get better? I am proud of you, keep going, i don't adress you here because people who actively try to get better for the people around them are trying, and you can be proud at yourself for that.
But people who just say "i'm sorry its the mental illness!" and expect their friends/partners/familymembers to forgive them aren't.
It is okay to say "Hey, i'm really sorry, i didn't meant to at all. I wasn't myself." Because it often actually is the reason for our behaviour. But to say that, you HAVE to actually try and get better in my eyes.
I do NOT demonise mental illnesses.
But I am aware of what damage it can cause, and that there is no way around but pointing things out.
I did mistakes before, and I also needed time to realise that it was quite often actually my fault, that i need to work on myself to get better and i just know some of you are triggered at this point.
But sometimes that is needed to understand yourself. To understand your mistakes.
It is not okay to say "it's not my fault! I'm mentally ill! I can't help it!"
I know its easier to say that, but, if you continue to do that you are not only (accidently) hurting others but also yourself.
Also, it is not fair that there are healthy people saying "they all are the same." Because we're not.
Every one of us, no matter wich mental illness, is different.
Every one of us deserve a chance just like every other human.
Let me point out again: Its not your fault for being mentally ill and/or traumatised, but it is indeed your responsibility.
A little reminder: there are many healthy people who also hurt their partners, sometimes fully aware of their actions.
You are not your diagnose. (Greetings to my therapist.)
LASTLY: a mental illness doesn't mean your love is bad! You can love, you deserve love, you are still a good person.
That's it, take care of yourself <3
I felt the need to write this down since i am sick of people judging others because of their disorder, also I am sick of people who use their disorder as a sort of excuse.
"Your trauma makes you stronger"
No, my trauma gave me depression, quiet & self-destructive bpd, anxiety, insomnia and a inner child that desperately wants to get healed.
Scared of being alone, only pleasing other people desperately trying to have friends, to not be the outstander.
I was a child. I wanted to be protected by the persons that hurt me. I wanted their help & their love. And now I am the person struggling to accept care even though I want it because it makes me feel trapped & dependent. I am the person struggling to show love.
Romantisized Daddy issues/father complex.
No, daddy issues isn't liking to call someone 'daddy' in Bed, thats a kink and not a issue.
The father complex is a trauma response, so please stop romantisizing it out of respect.
Its much more than the liking in older men.
There are 3 Types:
Fearful - avoidant means that affected people avoid getting close to anyone. If they are in a relationship, they tend to run away from challenges. They struggle with intimacy.
Anxious - preoccupied means that affected ones are scared to be left, ofting causing relationship anxiety. Its common that they are really clingy and feel unsettled if they aren't with their partner.
Dismissive - avoidant means that affected ones have heavy trust issues, avoiding conservations and being scared of getting hurt again or to depend on anyone else than themselve.
Lets go over to common symptoms, the type of a father complex clearly depends on the symptoms.
Possessiveness & clingy behaviour.
Overabundance of love & assurance.
Using Sex to feel loved.
Dating (older) men that make you feel protected.
Being afraid to be alone. > jumping from one relationship into another.
Choosing repetitively abusive men.
Attachment issues.
Being afraid to be vulnerable.
Trust issues.
Not setting boundaries because you're scared they will leave if you say "no."
Idealizing your partner.
the father complex often comes with..
Depression
Persistent anger issues
Low self-esteem
Stress
Worry
Anxiety
The father complex is treatable, search for a therapist and analyse your struggles. If your partner is okay with that, maybe even consider couple therapy.
So am i the only one that gets more and more (silent) panic attacks when i get emotionally extremely tired like tired to the point it physically affects my body.
Feeling weak, nimbs going numb, dizziness and headaches, stomach pain, things like that I mean.
Probably also a thing that more people should talk about mental illnesses since just because you can't see something there isn't nothing. Most illnesses begin without a visible characteristic.
But at the same time, if we try and talk about this were just lazy or imagining things.
But why? Like (normally) nobody is questioning if you really have a headache or stomachpain or things like that but if you say "its because my mental health." You can't be sick just because they can't relate/understand.
Starting with kindergarten, our educational system is like a gigantic, heartless machinery programmed to standardise everything on its assembly line and discard all that does not fit the norm.
It's like you're putting pressure on the most vulnerable children, straining them to the max and beyond, until they crack and start erring, and then you slap a diagnosis on their foreheads and pat yourselves on the shoulder proudly, saying "good thing we spotted that".
Well, fuck you back. Just fuck you.
How about next time, you don't break them, and you don't put more pressure on them than they can bear, and you let them tap into their own resources and allow them to grow at their own pace and just look at the kid standing before you, just fucking look at them — not through them — at them — and see what they need to not be overwhelmed.
It's your job. Your vocation. To accompany children — even the fragile and difficult ones — into growth, not to pressure-test them and push their buttons and push them again until they cave in under the pressure and their tiny, fragile circuits begin to err while you keep pushing their buttons, and then you hand them to a specialized colleague because the child is [insert diagnosis here].
Just fuck you. This is where I draw the line. Fuck you.
Hi! I will be posting my progress in working out and transition here and I also want to find a place here for my Astarion and BG3 phase 🦇
So hello everyone! those who are interested in my progress and Astarion! 😜
Have a nice day everyone and see you in the next post 🤍
One of the very few plot threads I liked after season 2.
I did very much appreciate how much Discovery catered so openly to some of the modern social movements happening around the world, be it LGBTQ+ awareness, gender expression and identity, and the more silent struggles like mental health support and awareness. This particular plot thread with Detmer actually motivated me to write the one-shot that became my out-of-control Airiam and Michael 6-fic series, and Detmer has long been on my character study hit list, too.
Anyone who follows my writing will probably notice a trend of me digging into the inner workings of characters' minds, be they originals of my own or existing characters from film or books. People and relationships are fascinating. Non-human or artifical thinking is fascinating. As someone who overthinks damn near everything, being able to use that quirk in my writing to bring attention to the different ways people might experience the world around them, and why they make the choices they do, is wonderful and cathartic.
I spend way too much of my time writing to make up for the hundreds of shortcomings I saw in Discovery post season 2, but Detmer was a character done right the entire way through.
It's a big word to be able to say.
Validation
🌟 As little babies, and then toddlers, our lives depend on validation. We need others to mirror and reflect what we feel, to know that each emotion is normal. We crave an explanation and mediation of these strange new sensations inside us—feelings. 💓
But if our surroundings never provided such validation or weren't capable of giving it, our need to feel seen and know that we are normal as we are faces a significant obstacle. 😢
However, my friend, it's never too late to learn to understand and believe to your body, your sensations, and your emotions, no matter how strange or strong they might feel. Even if they seem out of control, it might be because they, and the little you, haven't been seen for too long. 🥺
Upon learning to listen to ourselves, we first encounter some intense stuff. But with a tiny flame of hope and compassion, step by step, we might find relief—which is valuable for every part of your life that follows. 🌱 Sending you soft, loving validation, and know that with all your unique and different parts, you are normal as you are. To exist is to be a normal part of this life, just as you are. 💖 🌈🌸
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motherfuckers be like "I'm pro mental health" until
• age regression and related
• coping through kink
• coping through fiction
• poor hygiene
• disordered eating
• self destructive behaviour
• "evil"/"scary" disorders (cluster b, schizo-spec, dissociative, paraphilia, etc)
• and other that I can't currently remember
Staying positive doesn't mean rejecting your negative emotions. It means accepting your feelings and understanding them and understanding that you are In control of how you feel.
Gulp of Zinc Lips
The curve of midnight
Rains over a sunny dismay
Fields to dream aloof
After praise of action redeem
The fellowship lurk maiden
Whose right hand left stuck
In a maze of fingerprints
Put towards a delicate touch
Too much soft harden glaze
A crunch the time set
Like playing Monopoly
Without thy winner's luck
A ponder a chance
To twinkle the decrease
Loosen the manic ready
For a pill took too
Late to savior A
Gulp of Zinc left
On a taste of lips.
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"Locking thy one's, inner exceptional, pulls to some external force."
-John Tyler Mounce
Noted: 'typography' which one found amongst Andy Warhol postcards, the initial penmanship is the word, "expectional", which is obviously meant to be once corrected to: "exceptional". My mistake and looking back though intentions were that it had been spelt correct, my was thy wrong. P-e-C turned C-e-P.
This Christmas, a pair from my collection, with major help from @redbubble , a gift to that specialist in thy life.. well, at one point we were. They've gone and made a quite impressive name for himself and his brand BUT none-the-less there's a few items that need to be given, to his possession IF he has time, amongst this Christmas Eve or the BIG day of Christmas, tomorrow.. the title for this creation on: @redbubble "An audiotapes of 'HELLO', Rosemary's Babe." By: John Tyler Mounce. Just Google: Redbubble An Audiotapes Of Hello Rosemary's Babe and seek my name, attached to the product. Shown is a screenshot of an adaptation of 'Rosemary's Baby's', that was fairly recent and intrigued by the wording of: 'HELLO' and so, the rest is now online and app format through Redbubble. *Praises*
Gray's Matters
Lost and gazing smoke linger
Along thy pathway to forsaken
Those brought acid invented trip
To spaced out stance that rips
Shred my brain fragments
Squishy gray matter formed.
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Animal Crossing Healthy Living
Animal Crossing has been helping people all over the world get through one of the most stressful years in the 21st century. Check out this article from the NY Times to learn more about the psychology behind it. And if you’re feeling particularly stressed out, try finding a healthy outlet for yourself.
https://www.nytimes.com/2020/04/07/arts/animal-crossing-covid-coronavirus-popularity-millennials.html
From The brink of suicide to Getting help, We Stan a Mental Health King
