Whats The Point - Blog Posts

i hate school :/ i have like 3 assignments its 10 pm I just dont care anymore

Why does “Big Betrayal“ slap so hard????

I was so sad and hungry I genuinely considered dropping out of college so I could go home and drive to Del taco

am I unstable or it the world unstable? Are my actions extreme and dramatic or appropriate to the ever deteriorating state of society?? Does anyone know because I sure don’t

I used to be so in love I’d stay up all night with her to watch the sunrise and now I only see her in my dreams

I remember when I thought about creepypasta for so long, I BOUGHT an old 2000’s camera just so I could pretend I was in marble hornets.

Honestly... The darkness scares me more now rhat i have a life im excited to love for. i actually have peolle in my life that care about me and i realize that, which is terrifying because i dont wanna hurt them like i wanna hurt myself ya know?

Why am i trusting him with my body if i cant even trust him with my mind?

Im suprised I made it this far without bingeing. I ate about 400 calories. I feel starving but full. The only thing us now i cant sleep...

"You and i were meant to be, but only in a memory"

- Lauren Duski -Deja Vu

I thought you were the one for me...

My sleeve rolled up, but only for a second. I didnt even notice my fresh scars were showing. Suddenly i feel my sleeve being pulled up. Its my "friend". She doesnt know i cut. Only 1 person knows. I just said it was my sisters cat. She didnt buy it. Other people start to join in, asking what really happened. Ive beeen keeping this secret for 2 years, and ill be damned if they find out now.

Eventually, they gave up on asking. That night, i cut a little too deep. A little too far down. My thighs were already covered in blood, so i moved on to my upper arms, so it could be covered with a tshirt. It started rolling up again and the next day, i felt that same terror as someone tried pulling up my sleeve without warning. I couldnt think. I was in a group of about 10 people, and i had a total breakdown. I blacked out, but luckily, my one friend was in that group and told everyone to just leave me alone. Thats why i love her so much. I know she'll always have my back, even though we havent talked about it in a year.

Why the fuck do you only notice my cuts now?

Where were you 2 years ago? You only notice now because ive given up on trying to hide it. All 4 of my limbs are covered in cuts, so i guess it was only just a matter of time... if only my fucking teacher hadnt made me take off my hoodie, you still wouldnt know or care.

I just keep thinking about that kiss... i keep thinkung about how much i want to just run up to him and kiss him. I just want to be with him, which only proves that im a psychopath. He played me before, hes not good for me. This isnt healthy. But, something that feels so good cant possibly be bad, right?

Why am i never enough for anyone?

Damn, youre a good actor. I actually thought you loved me.

- i really just wish i never found out. That i can just be oblivious, but happy.

I have a serious addiction. I cant stop. Its been a year and a half and i just keep finding new places. Anywhere i look are covered in scars. I dont know how to stop, and i dont know if i want to...

I had a family, once. Then i fucked up and things were never the same.

- the funny thing is, i don't take it back. Im happier alone, and i think that scares me more...

He broke me so many times, but for some reason i'm only at peace when im with him

- i know this will end horribly, but im out of here soon anyways...

Im screaming on the inside, and you dont care.

hey, i was wondering if you had any thoughts about sokka returning to piandao to continue his training? do you think he does? what does that look like?

considering he only spent a total of 2 days with piandao and sokka is piandao’s favorite human ever to walk this earth apparently, i’m sure they’d reunite at some point, and sooner rather than later (other than at the white lotus encampment, i mean). i’m sure they would continue training (swordsmanship, painting, calligraphy, etc), maybe play pai sho together, and gossip about the (other) members of the white lotus. i think their relationship would eventually evolve past student + master, cause if sokka was able to achieve that much after a day it probably wouldn’t take long for piandao to be like “i have nothing more to teach you.” of course, they remain lifelong friends (he’s not sokka’s first weirdly older friend, and he won’t be his last. it’s cause sokka has grandpa energy). not to mention they see each other regularly at white lotus meetings. and when piandao dies, he leaves everything to sokka.